Know Anyone to Commit (or try) Suicide?

Yo, I'm gonna keep it a buck.
When my daughter had cancer and it looked like she might die, I really thought about offing myself, not because I wanted to die, on the contrary, my life was sweet as fuck back then.
The reason why is because at that time if I were to lose her, I don't think I would want to live in a world without her.
I even thought about doing it in the hospital so my organs could be harvested so that I could save someone's life, so they wouldn't have to go through what I was going through at that time.
Now that she's older, I don't think that losing her would have that impact on me. The reason why I bring this up is that I believe everyone has a tipping point, the main difference is that some unfortunate souls aren't as lucky as I was.

A true father's love for his daughter can't be measured. Imagine the grief she would have had, had you gone through it. Glad you stuck it out.
 
No but during the early 80's black suicide was up. During slavery when conditions were intolerable we survived but now some people see no way out for themselves or their kids

Isn't that something. Slaves pulled through and many of us can't. Although I know many slaves did make the choice (not really a choice) to end it. I might have under those hellish conditions.
 
Yo, I'm gonna keep it a buck.
When my daughter had cancer and it looked like she might die, I really thought about offing myself, not because I wanted to die, on the contrary, my life was sweet as fuck back then.
The reason why is because at that time if I were to lose her, I don't think I would want to live in a world without her.
I even thought about doing it in the hospital so my organs could be harvested so that I could save someone's life, so they wouldn't have to go through what I was going through at that time.
Now that she's older, I don't think that losing her would have that impact on me. The reason why I bring this up is that I believe everyone has a tipping point, the main difference is that some unfortunate souls aren't as lucky as I was.

we all have a tipping point. I’ve been there as well. My suicidal thoughts was more of “I don’t think I’m going to make it out here alive.” Which was more of a rhetorical statement because no one is going to make it out here alive anyway. I was just so consumed by the emotions I was feeling and thoughts about life in general and how absurd it can be.

What sort of sick joke is it to be given someone to love so they can be taken away without our permission? That’s life. That’s what life does.

On the flip side, what sort of joke is it for someone to be born to people that traumatizes a person from birth with abuse. But that’s life and what it does.

So yeah, I see why folks walks this earth on edge all the time. Because at some point we all have to face something where the pain is more than we want to bare.
 
I had a classmate commit suicide. His girlfriend broke up with him and he shot himself right before the school bus picked him up!! That was back in 81!! Whenever I think about that day, I get that same vibe that ran thru our school that day!!
 
Me. August 8, 2021. I was on a drug binge and was still tripping when I tried to slice through my wrist with a knife. For some reason, the blade would not go through. I am not proud of my actions at all but I’m getting help. I have my good days and bad. Yesterday was a tough day but I went home and cuddled with my friend.
 
The trauma that a lot of people carry on a daily basis is more than anyone can imagine.

You just never know what someone have went through to make them who they are.
This is a personal creed I try to live by despite the irony:

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I had a cousin in Toronto that threw herself in front of a subway train. She had been suffering from severe depression for years.

In college the head of the AV department killed herself. A classmate of mine attempted several times.

Had another friend whose girlfriend used to do attention suicides. One night she took a bunch of pills. Everyone was worried until I read the bottle label. Basically just headache medicine and over-the-counter cold tablets.

If people want to end their lives that's fine. Just don't be an asshole about it
 
My upbringing...would have been better if I was raised by wolves...moms would sit on my back...while Daddy whipping me...and take turns...doing that shit...and while I was bathing... break in the bathroom...and break skin..while whipped me with extension cords...and all that is just a appetizer for what else happened to the Killamayne...so Naw...wasn't nothing wrong for wanting to end it all...brah
i hated that 'getting beat in the bathtub' bullshit. terrified me..but i turned out ok...you had it rough bruh :smh:
 
Yo, I'm gonna keep it a buck.
When my daughter had cancer and it looked like she might die, I really thought about offing myself, not because I wanted to die, on the contrary, my life was sweet as fuck back then.
The reason why is because at that time if I were to lose her, I don't think I would want to live in a world without her.
I even thought about doing it in the hospital so my organs could be harvested so that I could save someone's life, so they wouldn't have to go through what I was going through at that time.
Now that she's older, I don't think that losing her would have that impact on me. The reason why I bring this up is that I believe everyone has a tipping point, the main difference is that some unfortunate souls aren't as lucky as I was.

Damn bruh, right on write on, thats how your suppose to love your kids and family!! Thanks for sharing that
 
Next door neighbor growing up. White dude, Italian. Supposedly the Mafia was after him (at least that's what I heard) and they were going to hurt or kill members of his family. I do not know if this was true or not. He did leave a note but I didn't have the heart to ask what it said.

Was very shocking. Dude was well known and was a ladies man. Tall and good looking.
 
A cousin of mines. And a few years later her mother.
A couple of bosses. (different industries, different reasons)
A guy I used to know, who had a stroke right out of high school and as a result has a brain injury.
I've come close a few times. Various reasons why I haven't just done it. Wish I could say because of family, or someone depending on me, I guess just knowing that it can be worse.
 
My upbringing...would have been better if I was raised by wolves...moms would sit on my back...while Daddy whipping me...and take turns...doing that shit...and while I was bathing... break in the bathroom...and break skin..while whipped me with extension cords...and all that is just a appetizer for what else happened to the Killamayne...so Naw...wasn't nothing wrong for wanting to end it all...brah
Killagram are you fucking serious? damn dude.. real talk.. that's some wild shit. I'm glad you ok enough to talk shit to me. lol.
 
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My upbringing...would have been better if I was raised by wolves...moms would sit on my back...while Daddy whipping me...and take turns...doing that shit...and while I was bathing... break in the bathroom...and break skin..while whipped me with extension cords...and all that is just a appetizer for what else happened to the Killamayne...so Naw...wasn't nothing wrong for wanting to end it all...brah

damn brah... you've been through some shit... glad you stuck it out, brah
 
Too many.

Two high school friends both slashed their wrists less than a year after graduating high school. Both were in their first year of college. Both came from good families, middle class, etc. No one saw it coming. One got caught up in some weird religion. The other was battling deep depression and told no one.

A neighbor of mine had a twin brother. His brother caught the monster. Didn't want to deal with the shame. Offed himself. Pity is, with all the advancements in medicine over the past years he could have now been a healthy carrier.

About three years ago, a guy I've known since I was fourteen closed his bedroom door, locked it, and hung himself with a leather belt. He had a successful small business and a teenage daughter he took care of. Nobody knows why he did it.

Last year a female friend in her thirties swallowed a bottle of pills after finding out her husband of seven years was a fag and leaving her to be with a dude. She survived.
 
Two guys that I worked with when I first got into IT ended up doing it. One of them took a trip to Germany after him and his wife split up, and he got hit by a train... but everybody pretty much knew he wasn't walking around on the tracks taking selfies.
The other guy was found hanging in his attic.
 

That bottom stat is misleading. For all races including ours, the top three causes of death for young people are unnatural causes (homicide, suicide, and accidents). That doesn't necessarily mean that suicide is a big problem with young people, it just means that they're very unlikely to die by natural causes.
 
That bottom stat is misleading. For all races including ours, the top three causes of death for young people are unnatural causes (homicide, suicide, and accidents). That doesn't necessarily mean that suicide is a big problem with young people, it just means that they're very unlikely to die by natural causes.

It still is largely preventable, which is the overall point it's trying to make. Non-Hispanic Black men are the second highest numbers, only Non-Hispanic White men are higher. And they are on average 3-4x higher than Black women. Redirecting the facts to something else to not make it look that bad is part of the problem. Men in general do not have a support system
 
What good will that do... kinsfolk?

It might not bro. What you went through was horrific. Maybe you can help others to survive. I think cats reading your story on this forum is encouraging.

Didn't mean to overstep.
 
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