Great Quote.
I need to vent.
I mostly will point out that this decade which is mercifully drawing to a close is the worst of my life being honest some of, if not half of the bad stuff that has happened in this decade is by my own hand. I still have somewhat of a tough time keeping my emotions in check, I'm too old to be prone to fits of anger. Anger for me is like a tornado, only takes moments to happen, but years to recover. At this age no one will tolerate it. I need to stop procrastinating, life is not a game, there is no reset button, there are no continues, you have one chance to make something of yourself. I need to stop blaming my mother for the choices she made raising me, We don't see eye to eye on much and probably never will, but I should at least recognize that she did the best she could with what she had and for that I should be grateful. I feel that I might be developing a pattern of verbal abuse and I think that I have pushed away some real meaningful people in my life due to it, I really want it to stop before it causes me to lose out even more. I don't want to pick up the habit of being untruthful, it's not fun, it's hell, its hell for everybody involved and guess you never know how much you hurt somebody when you do that. It's always best to be 100% truthful 100% of the time, than to be untruthful and do damage than can almost never be repaired in the process. I think that I am the person who does my own-self the most harm. I think that might be the damning aspect of my personality. But I guess it's good that I realize this and understand that there will be somethings out of my control but if I can deal with them in a mature way things will uncountably be much better for me. I'm pretty sure that that if I can nail these things down 2009 will be an epilogue for this decade of destruction instead of being a prelude to lifetime of underachievement.
Ma I am NOT about to swap sex stories w/ you. She said well maybe you could get some toys or something............
