I lost my only child.
Ever since then ive vowed that when i do have kids again (35 now), and if i have a son that he not wait to be as old as me and have as many as he can. I have yet to come close to the happiness that my child brought me. I would want my son to not make the mistakes i made by waiting.
Sorry for your loss. But you can't fold up on that, you have to keep your head high and di it all over again and that happinness you are missing will be back again