Damn man I wish but not really wish that though.
Man made situation here.
Shit real as fuck.
I understand it's very difficult to believe and will be very difficult to believe unless you experience it. Truthfully I probably would have had a hard time believing it too if I hadn't experienced it.
Naw, man, I been there before.
Mkultra, brain scanning, thought beaming, gangstalking, see through wall radar guns etc. I thought my fuckin brain was hacked.
Theres enough mental fuckery out there on the net to make you believe its true and with the way technology has advanced, some of these devices you read about on the internet dont sound too farfetched.
Unhealhy thought patterns ingrained in me from my childhood popped up in my early adult life and I threw myself into a self induced psychosis, I too thought it was real, hell you couldnt tell me nothin, everybody told me I was nuts.
(Reading conspiracy theories online DID NOT help)
Just know big bro, your mind is way more powerful than you can fathom. This could be a real phenomenom or it can be an illusion. If its just an illusion, know, your mind can and is connecting dots that dont need to be connected and once ones mind is made up or set on a topic, idea, or scenario, even quantifiable evidence of nothing at all going on will not be enough to sway you away from your (may be) deluded perception ( I've been there)
Let me ask you this,
Do you have any physical proof?
Who's doing it?
How long have they been doing it?
What have or havent you done about it?
Why?
Whats "their" ultimate plan?
These were some of the probing questions I began asking at the beginning of the end of my psychosis.
I forget exactly how I pulled myself out of my fucked mental state, but I know that placing myself in a new environment started to break down the delusion. Being in a totally new environment gave me the realization that nobody has the time or enough fucks to give to be on some psyop psywar shit with me and the folks I thought was after me didnt have access to the type of technology that I thought was being used against me (I guess the same cant be said for your situation). Dont get me wrong, I do believe this is possible. I've read alot about all that stuff og freddy talkin bout with the government, so I dont know big bro, all I can say is I been through the same thing (mentally) and it ended up being a self deluded psychosis. I even remember posting on here on some schitzo psycho shit. Lol everybody here clowned me, thought I had snorted bath salts.
You say its been 16 years, man, my shit lasted maybe 2. No disrespect bro but WTF are you doin. I dont want you to do nothing crazy, but I got to a point where I felt that I would rather kill these mofos than let em use they psywar toys on me.
I dont know what to tell you big bro. I just noticed the correlation between what you're going through and what I been through, that shit is mentally hellish, so I had to inquire about it.
FWIW the silver lining in the whole ordeal is that your mind is a very powerful tool. The gist of what og freddy was saying was right (at least it was for me) Once the delusion shattered I understood how I used my mind to create the psychosis, and slowly I undid the mental fuckery I induced on myself.
I know this post is kinda all over the place, I been mentally drained lately, but this is my 2 cents.
should have been all you can be in the army!
