how many suffer from depression

[kdogg3270]

that's kind of where i was going with that comment. I don't ever want to forget my mother's voice. hell, she used to blow up my phone trying to get me to answer (i think all moms swear you have nothing better to do then sit by the phone lol)..anyways she would leave me messages. after her death, i kept her messages - just felt some comfort in her voice. Her FB account is still active too.

and you are right about that hurt comment. Better to experience it and not hold it in. I'm not ashamed to say that , to this day, I think about her and i cry.

dude............. smfh.... I be riding around crying in the supermarket while Im shopping.... I cant help it... I be mad as fuck about it too ... people be lookin @ me like wtf I keep shopping wit no fuks given & get it together. I had to call my big homie & tell him what was happening from the bathroom stall He has it rough too... his moms forget where she is, who he is, & the whole 9. So he totally understands where Im coming from. I couldnt imagine what he goes thru.... his moms is a piece of work. She's 1 of those that fucked her own son over & now he's taking care of her...

This shit is wild. Im glad it doesn't hurt as much but shit dnt feel no better. Its like the scene from GoodFellas where they whacked lil buddy & he got the call & they stand in the parking lot trying not to cry... a stone-cold killer trying not to cry knowing he cant do SHIT about it! Gotta eat that. Keep it pushin! Move along now aint nothing to see.

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yeah life is a motherfucker. Sometimes you gotta eat that L and keep pushing. Hang in there.

 

[kdogg3270]

My dad passed in May. Was in denial. Tried to stay busy, but all I want to do is sleep now.

oh damn. hang in there man.

 

[sheppettybone]

since my moms passed away last April shit has been a roller coaster ride & it hasnt been fun @ all.
family changed & friends turn out to be more family than family.

I feel your pain, my mother passed away in January. I cared for her for over a decade. That grief hit every emotion I had all at once. I never felt that level of pain, I was so exhausted, To this present day it's difficult for me to walk into her now empty room.

 

[BrownTurd]

since my moms passed away last April shit has been a roller coaster ride & it hasnt been fun @ all.
family changed & friends turn out to be more family than family.

Just kill yourself. Your life is not meaningful

 

[godofwine]

I'm going through it

Being single sucks ass, especially because I don't have a connection to my family at all. I'm related to a bunch of fucking robots and none gigantic asshole in my immediate family

My mom, sister and brother are robots. I haven't seen my mother since last year's Super Bowl I don't think. I've seen my sister once since the Super Bowl and the last time I saw my brother was the Super Bowl party here at my house

I nothing them. I don't know if I would miss them if they were gone. I know if I weren't related to them I wouldn't know them and the only thing I have in connection with them is blood, my mom included

I long for a family so those who have a close family don't take that shift for granted. My family makes no effort at all to see me to call me to check on me.

Last year I went through a situation where I grew weed and my backyard just for the fuck of it, no particular reason. I asked my sister and brother if they could write a letter in support and those punk ass bitches said, "How about you write a letter and we sign it"

When my court date hit those motherfuckers didn't call me for a week. I could have been in fucking jail, but luckily I got probation

Fuck them

My father only wants a connection with me because my sister, the one he was always closer to, cut him off

This motherfucker called me on February 20th and said, "Is your birthday the 6th or the 7th. I can't remember. One of those days was me and your mother's anniversary

It took everything in me not to say, TODAY IS THE MOTHERFUCKING 20TH. Regardless of what day you think is my birthday, that shit ,both days were 2 weeks ago!!!"

But right now I'm in a feeling of just uselessness. I just want somebody to want me around.

I try to date but none of these bitches are interesting and I refuse to settle for one of these bitches who just popped out kids with every single fucking guy they met and only want a good man after they had a kid or three by adult boys masquerading as men. I don't do single moms. I don't have the patience or the energy to deal with these undisciplined bastards

I'm just floating through life. Just bored. The bupropion, and antidepressant prescribed by the VA it's kind of helping.

Those of you who lost parents, I wish I could trade my father so you can have yours back

 

[godofwine]

Just kill yourself. Your life is not meaningful

You are an absolutely evil piece of shit. Brown turd is the perfect name for you. I don't ban many people, but I will no longer look at your name or respond to anything you post. I'm fucking done with you piece of shit fucking asshole

For over 20 years I've come here and gotten to know so many of you. I know y'all but don't know y'all at the same goddamn time. I could live right down the street from one of you motherfukers and wouldn't even know it

This board is the spot. I check BGOL, Twitter, and a couple other websites daily but y'all are like extended family to me

BGOL, man we all we got. I am My Brother's Keeper. But for you, you're just an asshole with absolutely no kindness in your heart

 

[ThaS]

To me depression only makes you stronger. Life is hard, life is a bitch and life is certainly not fair.
But sometimes you got to go through Hell to get to Heaven.

When i'm depressed. I go fully into beast mode.
No gaming, no tv, no junk food.

Only running, lifting and working hard.

Try incorporate some running into you life. I hate running, i still do. But it's life changing.
It's like a meditation, it's clears my mind. And it's the main reason why i'm so ripped right now (i was morbidly obese for years).

Stay strong!

 

[mailboxpimp]

I think this last year has really taken it's toll on a lot of people. I had to admit a few months ago I was, which also caused me to make one of the biggest mistakes of my life and now I'm trying to undo it.

Depression is hell, because as you said it's a roller coaster ride. I can say I'm in a good place in life, but not happy with where I placed myself if that makes sense.

I'm praying by the end of the year things will turn around.

This is part of the reason I made this thread..... I fucked up BIG TIME.. Ive NEVER fucked up ANYTHING like I fucked this up! and Now Im trying working to fix it NOW. If I dont the ONLY security I can see for me is gone.

Ican totally agree with this & you described where I am right now.

 

[mailboxpimp]

My dad passed in May. Was in denial. Tried to stay busy, but all I want to do is sleep now.

For the 1st 3 months, I was drunk & high every day ALL day..... waiting for my moms to come back... I told myself she left the house to go to the store & she'll be back cause that's what it felt like.

 

[mailboxpimp]

To me depression only makes you stronger. Life is hard, life is a bitch and life is certainly not fair.
But sometimes you got to go through Hell to get to Heaven.

When i'm depressed. I go fully into beast mode.
No gaming, no tv, no junk food.

Only running, lifting and working hard.

Try incorporate some running into you life. I hate running, i still do. But it's life changing.
It's like a meditation, it's clears my mind. And it's the main reason why i'm so ripped right now (i was morbidly obese for years).

Stay strong!

i feel you... but some people ... most people dont have that type of bounce back ... @least thats what Ive learned working on my degree. Counseling help you learn a lot of things you wouldnt have about self that most people dont realize they hide from themselves.


WOW... I joined a gym... i haven't gone for a month..... the lazy crept back in I was going EARLY in the morning for almost 2 months... early as in 5am.

 

[mailboxpimp]

You are an absolutely evil piece of shit. Brown turd is the perfect name for you. I don't ban many people, but I will no longer look at your name or respond to anything you post. I'm fucking done with you piece of shit fucking asshole

For over 20 years I've come here and gotten to know so many of you. I know y'all but don't know y'all at the same goddamn time. I could live right down the street from one of you motherfukers and wouldn't even know it

This board is the spot. I check BGOL, Twitter, and a couple of other websites daily but y'all are like an extended family to me

BGOL, man we all we got. I am My Brother's Keeper. But for you, you're just an asshole with absolutely no kindness in your heart

I laughed..... sometimes you gotta look @ it like that's somebody's way of showing "love". He's a troll..not as good of a troll as I am but a troll nonetheless. He's like the cousins you dnt want coming to the bbq or family reunion but they show up anyway & embarrass you in front of ya friends.

 

[Quek9]

Seek real help and don't sell medicate.

 

[4 Dimensional]

To me depression only makes you stronger. Life is hard, life is a bitch and life is certainly not fair.
But sometimes you got to go through Hell to get to Heaven.

When i'm depressed. I go fully into beast mode.
No gaming, no tv, no junk food.

Only running, lifting and working hard.

Try incorporate some running into you life. I hate running, i still do. But it's life changing.
It's like a meditation, it's clears my mind. And it's the main reason why i'm so ripped right now (i was morbidly obese for years).

Stay strong!

You ain’t lying about running.

It’s a healer. Depression is connected with the thoughts a person has. A person has to change how they think and not revert back to the thing that brings them down.

Like you, running is an incredible tool to relieve my mind of negative thoughts.

 

[ballscout1]

God, grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change,
the courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time,
enjoying one moment at a time;
accepting hardship as a pathway to peace;

Depression is being dominated by shit you have no control over.

Get up, dust yourself off before you find yourself in a hole that you did have control over.

 

[DJ]

You are an absolutely evil piece of shit. Brown turd is the perfect name for you. I don't ban many people, but I will no longer look at your name or respond to anything you post. I'm fucking done with you piece of shit fucking asshole

For over 20 years I've come here and gotten to know so many of you. I know y'all but don't know y'all at the same goddamn time. I could live right down the street from one of you motherfukers and wouldn't even know it

This board is the spot. I check BGOL, Twitter, and a couple other websites daily but y'all are like extended family to me

BGOL, man we all we got. I am My Brother's Keeper. But for you, you're just an asshole with absolutely no kindness in your heart

Man fuck the faggit ass OP, he always trying to get at somebody family members dead or alive around here.
@BrownTurd is right, Rob whole life is useless and fuck his dead momma.
Don't nobody give a fuck if this nigga jump off a bridge onto I95 at rush hour.

 

[xxxbishopxxx]

Just kill yourself. Your life is not meaningful

seriously dude?

 

[DJ]

seriously dude?

Absolutely, OP is a bitch.

 

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[playahaitian]

Hang in brother

I understand we understand

As brothers here and offline we gonna recognize that it's the media trying to act like less than human

Black men love feel cry hurt and get depressed like all other humans

I found a lot of wisdom on here when I needed it myself.

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[mrdiego2020]

i do real talk

 

[Entrepronegro]

This world we live in can make you depressed with all the shit that goes on daily.

 

[TheFuser]

since my moms passed away last April shit has been a roller coaster ride & it hasnt been fun @ all.
family changed & friends turn out to be more family than family.

Sorry to hear about this. If you can, you should talk to someone. There are some really good Black therapists out there who can help you through this.

Also, don't be down on yourself for having random moments of grief. Regardless of where it takes place. You can't rush healing. Give yourself lots of grace and space.

 

[Helico-pterFunk]

Bumped for the discussion & continued real talk.

 

[Helico-pterFunk]

Sorry to hear about this. If you can, you should talk to someone. There are some really good Black therapists out there who can help you through this.

Also, don't be down on yourself for having random moments of grief. Regardless of where it takes place. You can't rush healing. Give yourself lots of grace and space.

Very well said.

 

[mailboxpimp]

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