Thats something that you are going to have to work through on your own-that is not a void that can be filled by anyone. You have to mentally work through that. If you look to try and fill that void in a relationship you are setting you and your potential girlfriend up for failure in your relationship.
she said, "right now I don't think I can be more than a friend to you".
I realize it's not fair for me to want her to fill a void that neither her or I created.
How does one keep positive thoughts when one constantly has negative feelings?
Who can realistically fill the void of having a bad mother? Can it be fulfilled?