YOU Ever BUSTED One of Your Chicks CREEPING,,,

[destrehan]

You are entitled to your own opinion. I just don't believe how most of you are complaining how womens are cheating with no remorse and not taking responsibility and when someone do they crazy?

How the fuck does that sound?

And for you to imply that I might be crazy because I'm depressed displays your ignorance on the subject. But then again you can't give birth, so how would I expect you to understand?


I'm not condoning what I did or trying to find some way to justify it I'm just trying to give a different perspective. And if he were to take me back I would see it as a miracle, a blessing, and everything in between because the love of my life is a benevolent man and is a bigger man than most of you 'men' here. If he doesn't then my feelings for him still won't change. But if that makes him a 'simp' then so be it. I won't see him as anything other than a Man.

your story is very typical. my baby mother went through the same shit and she is catshit crazy just like most of you american broads. you get no points for admitting you have no control over yourself.

 

[jwilliam85]

Ya'll is describing some of the scum of the earth when it comes to females- I guess I could be included in that.

I can see how most of you would say that for men cheating is a physical thing and that for the women it's emotional. There might be something to that.


My ass did wrong. I know I did. I let go of the best thing I ever had, the only person that I truly loved, over some bitchass emotions. What makes it worse it was shortly after the birth of our child. I had been trying to figure out why I became such a horrible person bent on destroying my family- that was until I had to try to take a moment to understand my feelings. I didn't want to cheat- it wasn't like I woke up that morning and was like "Im'ma go fuck some other dude." Women only do that shit to be spiteful; I ain't that chick. The feelings that I had during my infidelities weren't really feelings. I felt remorse and guilt for what I did/was doing but as far a feelings towards the other person, it wasn't there. I came to the realization this morning that perhaps, (because I had just had a child), that it had to do with postpartum depression.

Now some of you might think that is a fucking cop out- cheat and not take responsibility for your actions, but blame it on something/someone else. I'm not like that. I fess up to what I did; I hurt people and I am not proud. I've been depressed before and probably the reason why I didn't notice it was because this was a different type of depression. One that wasn't centered on the daily chemical functions of my brain but had to do with my chemical imbalance as a woman. I say this because for some of the women you men may encounter, even if they do wrong, sometimes we have no reason why we act because we don't understand ourselves and everything that comes with it. No one is perfect, and I am the last to admit that I am. But sometimes it takes time for a woman to deal with things to figure out what it is she is dealing with.

Now I don't have all of the answers as to why women cheat. I still don't understand how men can cheat and then catch their girl and then loose faith in all women. But if there is some real love in that relationship with time and some talk the two of you should be able to make it to the root of the problem and try to rebuild something that was destroyed. At least I hope that.


Think of me what you will- whether its another bitch trying to justify her actions or someone who really sounds as though she has learned her lesson. I don't care. The only truths I know is that I hold one man in my heart and I always will. My pussy does not rule me like a dick rules a man. Some of you got bored with married sex- I wait for it. My cheating wasn't about having sex with another, (before that I had only had sex with one person), it was about running away from my home life. But why would I want to run away from something I had worked seven years to build? The only explanation I can give is that I was not in my right mind. Having been depressed-severely depressed- before my cheating period was on another level of depression because I felt dead inside. I couldn't understand how I could feel dead but still feel remorseful. I guess it's because being a cheater like I was at that time isn't who I am. Because I have never sought psychiatric help either before or after my pregnancy there was no way for me or anyone else to tell what was wrong with me; I just looked grimy.

I know when you catch your girl cheating you hurt. But for some chicks, they hurt to. Maybe I'm an exception; I don't know. But if I could do it all over again, I would and keep my family together. I was too stupid or blind and confused to realize that I had the best man willing to be with me in my life, and I fucked that up. I'm personally hoping that he will one day try to forgive me so that I can make it up to him. Or to begin to try to make it up to him, and my child. I have no right to ask you for anything but having an explanation for my confusions and knowing why I had mixed feelings at the time makes me confident in knowing I can be a better person. I think that if I had another child, even if I experienced postpartum depression again the same thing would not happen because I know what it feels like now.


...

Thats crazy but one thing I have learned from a past relationship is that you can't wife/girlfriend a woman who has a dysfunctional family, who's mother really wasn't about shit and someone who doesn't know or has seen what a succesful relationship looks like. I know fellas its a lot of nice looking females who you would wife in a minute and they might be able to hide their dysfunctional mindset to get you in a relationship but trust if her family aint right, she will never be fully up to the task to be in a relationship. And she will never know why she does the things she do because she doesn't see her family as "that fucked up" compared to the people around her. If you have a shorty that has some family issues the only way I suggest going about being with her if you really like her is to force her and her family to seek psychatric help. And this goes vice versa for men as well. Men Law #10093847: Only wife chicks who have had a good upbringing and who has stable relationship with both parents.

 

[melonpecan]

your story is very typical. my baby mother went through the same shit and she is catshit crazy just like most of you american broads. you get no points for admitting you have no control over yourself.

First of all, I have control over myself. Your baby momma went through postpartum depression? Ok, fine. But at least I can admit I was wrong. From the looks of some of your stories it seems as though ya'll can't get that. And while you may think my story is typical, you don't know it or what is behind it. While it is the truth there are important elements that I left out. Why?

Because that post wasn't written for you.


Bash American women if you want- I'm not even proud to be living in this country so I don't care. But for you to think that women going through some shit is crazy, is like I said earlier, showing your ignorance. If you can come out of that depression a better person and have the realizations that you did wrong and that there was a problem, then you can't be all that crazy. If you are depressed and you come out of still with screws loose then you haven't solved your problems. If the latter applies to your baby momma, that shit doesn't apply to me.

 

[destrehan]

First of all, I have control over myself. Your baby momma went through postpartum depression? Ok, fine. But at least I can admit I was wrong. From the looks of some of your stories it seems as though ya'll can't get that. And while you may think my story is typical, you don't know it or what is behind it. While it is the truth there are important elements that I left out. Why?

Because that post wasn't written for you.


Bash American women if you want- I'm not even proud to be living in this country so I don't care. But for you to think that women going through some shit is crazy, is like I said earlier, showing your ignorance. If you can come out of that depression a better person and have the realizations that you did wrong and that there was a problem, then you can't be all that crazy. If you are depressed and you come out of still with screws loose then you haven't solved your problems. If the latter applies to your baby momma, that shit doesn't apply to me.

go sitcho ass down somewhere.

 

[destrehan]

Thats crazy but one thing I have learned from a past relationship is that you can't wife/girlfriend a woman who has a dysfunctional family, who's mother really wasn't about shit and someone who doesn't know or has seen what a succesful relationship looks like. I know fellas its a lot of nice looking females who you would wife in a minute and they might be able to hide their dysfunctional mindset to get you in a relationship but trust if her family aint right, she will never be fully up to the task to be in a relationship. And she will never know why she does the things she do because she doesn't see her family as "that fucked up" compared to the people around her. If you have a shorty that has some family issues the only way I suggest going about being with her if you really like her is to force her and her family to seek psychatric help. And this goes vice versa for men as well. Men Law #10093847: Only wife chicks who have had a good upbringing and who has stable relationship with both parents.

wisdom right here. this is the root of my bm's problems. she tries hard to shake it but it's almost impossible for her. she will probably die alone. i feel bad for her. she clings to my family because they are the closest thing she's ever seen to a real family.

 

[melonpecan]

Thats crazy but one thing I have learned from a past relationship is that you can't wife/girlfriend a woman who has a dysfunctional family, who's mother really wasn't about shit and someone who doesn't know or has seen what a succesful relationship looks like. I know fellas its a lot of nice looking females who you would wife in a minute and they might be able to hide their dysfunctional mindset to get you in a relationship but trust if her family aint right, she will never be fully up to the task to be in a relationship. And she will never know why she does the things she do because she doesn't see her family as "that fucked up" compared to the people around her. If you have a shorty that has some family issues the only way I suggest going about being with her if you really like her is to force her and her family to seek psychatric help. And this goes vice versa for men as well. Men Law #10093847: Only wife chicks who have had a good upbringing and who has stable relationship with both parents.

Interesting insight. Unfortunately it doesn't apply to me. My parents are still together and have been for 31 years. My home life is stable and while I do have some fucked up family members I was not aware of their shortcomings until adulthood.

My depression began early in life, if I track it down to the death of a close family member. I grew up with these feelings not knowing what to do with them because seeking therapy was not an option. I was not always depressed while in my relationship but, (if you read my previous reply about not giving all of the elements), there are other things that brought it on for periods at a time. Because I was unable to give a clear answer when confronted on my wrongdoings I came to the revelation that postpartum could explain why I could not. It is hard wanting to say something and not understanding why you can't give an answer.

Does this make me unstable? Maybe. But at least I know what is wrong with me and I can try to fix it. Not to mention that he knew of my depression very early in our relationship and he still loved me.


(Realizing this as I type makes me all the more sure that you are perfect and now I understand).

 

[melonpecan]

go sitcho ass down somewhere.

Shut the fuck up.

 

[itwazuntme]

First of all, I have control over myself. Your baby momma went through postpartum depression? Ok, fine. But at least I can admit I was wrong. From the looks of some of your stories it seems as though ya'll can't get that. And while you may think my story is typical, you don't know it or what is behind it. While it is the truth there are important elements that I left out. Why?

Because that post wasn't written for you.


Bash American women if you want- I'm not even proud to be living in this country so I don't care. But for you to think that women going through some shit is crazy, is like I said earlier, showing your ignorance. If you can come out of that depression a better person and have the realizations that you did wrong and that there was a problem, then you can't be all that crazy. If you are depressed and you come out of still with screws loose then you haven't solved your problems. If the latter applies to your baby momma, that shit doesn't apply to me.

Regardless of how you come out of depression, the shit is still done, and it still stinks. I've been depressed too, but it didn't take me fuckin' somebody else to get my shit straight. American female logic is twisted...all your emotions fall right between your legs....

 

[Crown&Coke]

First of all, I have control over myself. Your baby momma went through postpartum depression? Ok, fine. But at least I can admit I was wrong. From the looks of some of your stories it seems as though ya'll can't get that. And while you may think my story is typical, you don't know it or what is behind it. While it is the truth there are important elements that I left out. Why?

Because that post wasn't written for you.


Bash American women if you want- I'm not even proud to be living in this country so I don't care. But for you to think that women going through some shit is crazy, is like I said earlier, showing your ignorance. If you can come out of that depression a better person and have the realizations that you did wrong and that there was a problem, then you can't be all that crazy. If you are depressed and you come out of still with screws loose then you haven't solved your problems. If the latter applies to your baby momma, that shit doesn't apply to me.

That "at least I can admit it" attitude does not help anything. Most men see that as the same as tryin to make excuses. Just like if a man cheat, it doesnt matter if he admits it or gets caught, he still cheated all the same. You dont get extra points for admitting it.​

 

[itwazuntme]

i'm not mad at him,,, like i said, marriage brought out the worst in me as far a cheating goes,,, i think a lot of dudes are expecting the same popping sex for the rest of their life when they marry,,, but that never happens,,,

once you start hearing all those excuses like "i'm tired from working all day",,, didn't you have the same job before we got married bitch?

kats start drifting off into internet porn, then cheating,,, then totally disconnecting from wifey,,, now you are just roomates who can't stant each other,,, i see it happen all the time

OK, I feel you here...cause the day I got married, I wanted to fuck for real, you know what my new wife told me...."Women only do that to get a man, I got you now, so I don't have to fuck you like that anymore"...I interviewed 3 contract killers, but their fees were too high....

 

[Crown&Coke]

OK, I feel you here...cause the day I got married, I wanted to fuck for real, you know what my new wife told me...."Women only do that to get a man, I got you now, so I don't have to fuck you like that anymore"...I interviewed 3 contract killers, but their fees were too high....

@ contract killers.

And women who always find themselves single or always gettin cheated on do that to get a man. The real chicks that keep a man stay doing what he want.​

 

[destrehan]

Regardless of how you come out of depression, the shit is still done, and it still stinks. I've been depressed too, but it didn't take me fuckin' somebody else to get my shit straight. American female logic is twisted...all your emotions fall right between your legs....

glad some more people came in to kick some sense to this delusional cow.

 

[melonpecan]

Regardless of how you come out of depression, the shit is still done, and it still stinks. I've been depressed too, but it didn't take me fuckin' somebody else to get my shit straight. American female logic is twisted...all your emotions fall right between your legs....

I agree with your first part...the damage is done and it stinks. You didn't have to fuck anyone to get your shit straight and I commend you for that. But I didn't fuck anyone else to get my shit straight either.

My emotions do not fall between my legs however. Although I would long for human contact I am just as content with my hand as I was with man- just on a different level. Like I said before there are elements that are missing from my original post that I choose not to get into. But I don't have to prove myself to you.

That "at least I can admit it" attitude does not help anything. Most men see that as the same as tryin to make excuses. Just like if a man cheat, it doesnt matter if he admits it or gets caught, he still cheated all the same. You dont get extra points for admitting it.​

I am not so proud that I can admit it as much as that I know I will come out of this a better person in understanding myself. I am not trying to make excuses- I can only give an explanation for why something happened. And the depression is my explanation. My admitting I did wrong was in direct response to the dick I quoted below. Once again, I am not trying to use postpartum depression as an excuse, but it can be attributed to emotions that I was not feeling or feeling during my time of infidelity knowing what regular depression feels like, I am okay with that. I had feelings and thoughts that was unlike me and for those who know me would have found it uncharacteristic. I did not have a explanation to certain questions when confronted or even answers to my own emotions and feelings- but I was able to recognize that something was wrong. But that was the past. I was not that person before it happened, I am not that person now. Who I was when I was cheating is a person I don't know, because what I did went against everything I believed in about my relationship. Once again I am not using it as an excuse but I cannot think of any other explanation as to why something so clear for eight years all of a sudden becomes muddy and hidden. I am still trying to understand it myself and I take responsibility for my actions but knowing what type of person I am, I know that whoever appeared when shit was going sneaky, was not I.

glad some more people came in to kick some sense to this delusional cow.

Didn't I tell you to shut the fuck up? Show your ignorance. I didn't have to call you names but I will call you what you are, dick. Now continue to fuck people you don't want or else I'll stick my hooves in your bitch ass. Don't think you know me by what I post cause you don't know shit. Now sit your ass the fuck down.

 

[destrehan]

I agree with your first part...the damage is done and it stinks. You didn't have to fuck anyone to get your shit straight and I commend you for that. But I didn't fuck anyone else to get my shit straight either.

My emotions do not fall between my legs however. Although I would long for human contact I am just as content with my hand as I was with man- just on a different level. Like I said before there are elements that are missing from my original post that I choose not to get into. But I don't have to prove myself to you.




I am not so proud that I can admit it as much as that I know I will come out of this a better person in understanding myself. I am not trying to make excuses- I can only give an explanation for why something happened. And the depression is my explanation. My admitting I did wrong was in direct response to the dick I quoted below. Once again, I am not trying to use postpartum depression as an excuse, but it can be attributed to emotions that I was not feeling or feeling during my time of infidelity knowing what regular depression feels like, I am okay with that. I had feelings and thoughts that was unlike me and for those who know me would have found it uncharacteristic. I did not have a explanation to certain questions when confronted or even answers to my own emotions and feelings- but I was able to recognize that something was wrong. But that was the past. I was not that person before it happened, I am not that person now. Who I was when I was cheating is a person I don't know, because what I did went against everything I believed in about my relationship. Once again I am not using it as an excuse but I cannot think of any other explanation as to why something so clear for eight years all of a sudden becomes muddy and hidden. I am still trying to understand it myself and I take responsibility for my actions but knowing what type of person I am, I know that whoever appeared when shit was going sneaky, was not I.





Didn't I tell you to shut the fuck up? Show your ignorance. I didn't have to call you names but I will call you what you are, dick. Now continue to fuck people you don't want or else I'll stick my hooves in your bitch ass. Don't think you know me by what I post cause you don't know shit. Now sit your ass the fuck down.

 

[melonpecan]

How can I be mad at a generalization from a person who doesn't know me? Glad to see you sat down some son.

 

[Rossini]

 

[big pimp]

 

[itwazuntme]

I agree with your first part...the damage is done and it stinks. You didn't have to fuck anyone to get your shit straight and I commend you for that. But I didn't fuck anyone else to get my shit straight either.

My emotions do not fall between my legs however. Although I would long for human contact I am just as content with my hand as I was with man- just on a different level. Like I said before there are elements that are missing from my original post that I choose not to get into. But I don't have to prove myself to you.

it wasn't like I woke up that morning and was like "Im'ma go fuck some other dude." Women only do that shit to be spiteful; I ain't that chick. The feelings that I had during my infidelities weren't really feelings. I felt remorse and guilt for what I did/was doing but as far a feelings towards the other person, it wasn't there.

Oh I'm sorry, you just fucked and cheated...but it wasn't for you or for him, it was just....well it just WAS....there is no explanation... If it walks like a duck and it talks like a duck, it's a duck....fuck all the symantics and the female rationalization ( elements missing and all that other shit) did you do it...yes you did o.k. then.

 

[darkninja7000]

point remains.. niggaz do dirt but bitches is grimey...straight fukkin filthy with their shit. and somehow, some way or another they always have a reason behind doing the shyt they did. when a nigga cheat more or less he's bored with the pussy.(i aint sayin it's right) but when a broad cheats....you get " you aint doin enough at home", "you work to many hours, you neva have time for me", "you don't make me feel loved or wanted" GTFO with that bullshit. then you get the "atleast i can admit it" that shyt makes you wanna haul off and flatten a bytch.

you wanna see how dirty a broad can be? watch fukkin maury. broads will straight up let you raise another man's child with no fukkin remorse. filthy!

 

[Afr0kan]

damn i guess its alot of broken hearts on BGOL huh??..

 

[destrehan]

Oh I'm sorry, you just fucked and cheated...but it wasn't for you or for him, it was just....well it just WAS....there is no explanation... If it walks like a duck and it talks like a duck, it's a duck....fuck all the symantics and the female rationalization ( elements missing and all that other shit) did you do it...yes you did o.k. then.

fam she REALLY thought nobody would be able to see through her bullshit because she typed in a large blue font

she is the perfect example of the trickery these women deploy against us. if dude came back the SAME shit would happen, because he is probably a trigger for whatever reason.

 

[Crown&Coke]

Melon. . .plain and simple you cheated. All the admitting it or saying that wasnt the same person doesnt matter to most people. What matters is that you cheated and it is what it is. I have been cheated on before and had my girl tryin to say all that same shit but it doesnt matter. You cheated.​

 

[darkninja7000]

Word! sometimes you just gotta sit back and laugh at these birds. they really be tryin ta use their pea brain on niggaz. have you thinkin you fukked up and shit.

 

[Rythm]

My ass did wrong. I know I did. I let go of the best thing I ever had, the only person that I truly loved, over some bitchass emotions. What makes it worse it was shortly after the birth of our child. I had been trying to figure out why I became such a horrible person bent on destroying my family- that was until I had to try to take a moment to understand my feelings. I didn't want to cheat- it wasn't like I woke up that morning and was like "Im'ma go fuck some other dude." Women only do that shit to be spiteful; I ain't that chick. The feelings that I had during my infidelities weren't really feelings. I felt remorse and guilt for what I did/was doing but as far a feelings towards the other person, it wasn't there. I came to the realization this morning that perhaps, (because I had just had a child), that it had to do with postpartum depression.



...

This is the one thing I understand about your story. Women don't just go out and cheat, ya'll fuckin start relationships. You tend to have these "fallback simps", "friends" or what ever you want to call em waitin in the wings. I'm curious about who you cheated with. Ex ?, coworker ? I'm willing to bet it was someone you had a side relationship with.

Ask your spouse to let you see their phone, if they aint up to nothing, it won't be a problem, getting a bunch of resistance is not a good sign. However, yo shit better be straight as well.

 

[Studio718]

She had a broken doorbell, so she always told me to come round back to knock on the window, so as I was goin to the back, I could see through the blinds two people in the bed! My heart and me sunk to the ground and I just sat there for a few minutes I could hear everything, so I called on the cell phone that I could hear from the inside, and she wouldn't pick it up, so I finally knocked on the window and everything just stopped she peeped through the blinds and cut off the t.v. and stuff and was tryin to act like she wasn't there, eventually she came to the front door and said if I didn't leave she was gonna call the police on me, and I was like what? She was like you can't be coming over here like this and I was thinkin about all the things I had done amd decided just to go home cause I was gettin angry. Long story short I used to preach the gospel................
.....Now I'm a black activist

wow, I am speechless.
I have to give it to you for being able to hold your composure and walk away from a possible homicide scene.

again..wow.

 

[Studio718]

OK, I feel you here...cause the day I got married, I wanted to fuck for real, you know what my new wife told me...."Women only do that to get a man, I got you now, so I don't have to fuck you like that anymore"...I interviewed 3 contract killers, but their fees were too high....

 

[BDR]

knock on wood I'm glad I haven't gone through half the shit u ninjas went through

 

[melonpecan]

Oh I'm sorry, you just fucked and cheated...but it wasn't for you or for him, it was just....well it just WAS....there is no explanation... If it walks like a duck and it talks like a duck, it's a duck....fuck all the symantics and the female rationalization ( elements missing and all that other shit) did you do it...yes you did o.k. then.

Yes I did, and yes I am. I don't deny that.

fam she REALLY thought nobody would be able to see through her bullshit because she typed in a large blue font

she is the perfect example of the trickery these women deploy against us. if dude came back the SAME shit would happen, because he is probably a trigger for whatever reason.

I don't care what font or color I type in I'd tell the same story. And all of my posts are like that since I've been on here except for one. And would the same shit happen again? No. Why? Read what I already wrote. Is he a trigger? Not now. Stop thinking you know how to read people you don't know. As long as my main post was it was brief. There is history to what led to my cheating on his part that I don't want to go into because me cheating was me cheating- not him. This ain't no fucking trickery or bullshit.


Go cry in a corner cause your girl did you wrong. She probably had a good reason to do so though.

Melon. . .plain and simple you cheated. All the admitting it or saying that wasnt the same person doesnt matter to most people. What matters is that you cheated and it is what it is. I have been cheated on before and had my girl tryin to say all that same shit but it doesnt matter. You cheated.​

See above. I understand. As long as the person my main post was written for understands my frustrations and my ability to try to cope with the situation at hand that is all I care about. Like I said before I don't deny I cheated; I admit I was wrong; I know that makes me a bad person; I'm not trying to run away from that. But I'm not like most people, and I have a reason for everything I do. Perhaps your girl found a way out and tried to use it, (giving depression as an excuse if that is what she did), but I'm not trying to do that. My bout with it is long and hurtful and now I am just trying to understand why I felt the way I did then, but my mind is clear now.

This is the one thing I understand about your story. Women don't just go out and cheat, ya'll fuckin start relationships. You tend to have these "fallback simps", "friends" or what ever you want to call em waitin in the wings. I'm curious about who you cheated with. Ex ?, coworker ? I'm willing to bet it was someone you had a side relationship with.

Ask your spouse to let you see their phone, if they aint up to nothing, it won't be a problem, getting a bunch of resistance is not a good sign. However, yo shit better be straight as well.

I don't need to see his shit because he is a good man. This I knew, but at the time I could not see this. The dude I was with was not a fallback simp, he was an ex from ten years ago. I know I am responsible for my own actions, (having rejected him before), but I believe being in the confused state I was in I fell for HIS trickery. (Women aren't the only ones who do trickery.) It wasn't a side relationship or anything, I simply wanted to be friends, and before you take it the wrong way, I had more male friends than female friends all my life. But I had no desire to be with them because of the relationship I was in. My desire to be with that particular ex now is non-existent. It always was. I was always remorseful for what we did, what I did. But at the time for the reason I mentioned and others that I have not nor will not, my mind became a mush and I became unable to cope with life. Take it how you will.

 

[destrehan]

Yes I did, and yes I am. I don't deny that.






I don't care what font or color I type in I'd tell the same story. And all of my posts are like that since I've been on here except for one. And would the same shit happen again? No. Why? Read what I already wrote. Is he a trigger? Not now. Stop thinking you know how to read people you don't know. As long as my main post was it was brief. There is history to what led to my cheating on his part that I don't want to go into because me cheating was me cheating- not him. This ain't no fucking trickery or bullshit.


Go cry in a corner cause your girl did you wrong. She probably had a good reason to do so though.





See above. I understand. As long as the person my main post was written for understands my frustrations and my ability to try to cope with the situation at hand that is all I care about. Like I said before I don't deny I cheated; I admit I was wrong; I know that makes me a bad person; I'm not trying to run away from that. But I'm not like most people, and I have a reason for everything I do. Perhaps your girl found a way out and tried to use it, (giving depression as an excuse if that is what she did), but I'm not trying to do that. My bout with it is long and hurtful and now I am just trying to understand why I felt the way I did then, but my mind is clear now.





I don't need to see his shit because he is a good man. This I knew, but at the time I could not see this. The dude I was with was not a fallback simp, he was an ex from ten years ago. I know I am responsible for my own actions, (having rejected him before), but I believe being in the confused state I was in I fell for HIS trickery. (Women aren't the only ones who do trickery.) It wasn't a side relationship or anything, I simply wanted to be friends, and before you take it the wrong way, I had more male friends than female friends all my life. But I had no desire to be with them because of the relationship I was in. My desire to be with that particular ex now is non-existent. It always was. I was always remorseful for what we did, what I did. But at the time for the reason I mentioned and others that I have not nor will not, my mind became a mush and I became unable to cope with life. Take it how you will.

lmao you sound JUST like that stupid bitch. no wonder dude knows better than to come back to your sorry ass. youz a fuckin MESS.

 

[melonpecan]

lmao you sound JUST like that stupid bitch. no wonder dude knows better than to come back to your sorry ass. youz a fuckin MESS.

 

[destrehan]

lol @ kissin a nigga ass through bgol. he don't want chu.

 

[BMG]

never been cheated on as far as i know

 

[melonpecan]

I didn't write what I did for this board, nor did I do it for sympathy. I wrote it for one person and one person only. While I agree with some of you on some things some of you are unbelievable and I cannot believe that with your mentality you made it as far as you have in life, if you made it far at all.

All that matters to me is whether or not he understands the feelings and the thoughts in what I wrote. HE is the only thing, the only person that I care about right now, (other than my child). Now if he reads this and takes ya'll advise and not take me back I won't be mad at him. If he doesn't care about a bunch of bitch made replys and take me back or tries to he will see the person he met, the person who enjoyed his company, the person who shared like interests, the one who just wanted to be with him always. Now I'm not saying I care about some of the bitch made replys, because I don't. I can admit what I am, but I still have a right to defend myself from baseless accusations that I am some sort of trickery out to get the black man cause I want a sex high. But then a gain I don't have to prove that to no one on this damn board but one muthafuckin' person. Take it how you will. Everyone is different and you can't compare me to the next chick because I ain't her.

 

[melonpecan]

lol @ kissin a nigga ass through bgol. he don't want chu.

If I need to do that I will. But is that what I'm doing here? No. Go to bed.

 

[water]

"It wasn't a side relationship or anything, I simply wanted to be friends, and before you take it the wrong way, I had more male friends than female friends all my life. But I had no desire to be with them because of the relationship I was in."