We ALL want it and ALOT of it, but money's a motherfucker bruh.
Like I said, greed and seeing other people especially those younger than you getting it in and you getting none is fucked up and defeating.
I was in a broke position. The only reason I got through it personally was because I stopped giving a fuck about money and told myself "Ok GOD, since I'm destined to be broke... well I'm going to be the best broke nigga this planet EVER seen." After that and by me not giving a fuck anymore things started to change. I was spending my last dollar paying everyone I owe and removing negative shit that took money from my life. I stopped worry about da next nigga pockets and fantasizing about LOTTERY riches. Next thing I know, I was GGOD.
Trust me when I tell you this, although you may not like it, BGOL IS ZERO GOOD for your depression. All these pics of bad bitches, lavish lifestyles, and seeing other members earning bands is INSPIRING for you to do SOMETHING but in reality, the average person don't have a plan or the ability to acquire that. It also inadvertently throws you back into a depress state because all you can think is "Why can't I have that?".
Well... Those lives ain't for everybody. You just need to "Do a little bad, so you can do a little good". Whatever that means for YOU... but I'm pretty sure it's applicable to your situation. LEARN somehow to be happy with what you have, Find a way to weed through the negatives and turn it positive, and HOPE for a little luck.
Don't be seeking no BITCH to save you either or help you. They are NO GOOD in that department because most want to be saved themselves.
Life ain't fair and it's a game of luck. Remember that, enjoy being BY YOURSELF, and WORK like you life depended on it (it does actually, Lol)... then things will turn around gradually and you may not even notice it changing.
Fuck money... I hate how it destroys people lives and minds. Believe me, these bitches n' crackers don't make it NOOOOO better. They will hurt you before they help you without expecting something in return. That's why I am the way I am now... it's
for all da bullshit.
I rather be a real nigga than a rich nigga... for da time being. So until the riches, "Fuck my life.." and lets keep da movie in production.