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Man - I didn't call my grandmother on her birthday. Just to say hello and check on her. She died that night.
A few days after I did a mediation with a 95 year old woman who looked just like and acted like my grandmother. Thought I was good - but man it fucked me up for a few days.
A few days after I did a mediation with a 95 year old woman who looked just like and acted like my grandmother. Thought I was good - but man it fucked me up for a few days.
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Man - I didn't call my grandmother on her birthday. Just to say hello and check on her. She died that night.
A few days after I did a mediation with a 95 year old woman who looked just like and acted like my grandmother. Thought I was good - but man it fucked me up for a few days.
A few days after I did a mediation with a 95 year old woman who looked just like and acted like my grandmother. Thought I was good - but man it fucked me up for a few days.
I wish I had left work early that day instead of staying late to check my personal email. Me and my niggas were having a picture battle(seeing who could post the finest chicks). I didnt know what flicker was back then. I click on the link and my niggas page came up as my Manager came around the corner. 
60k job gone... I was a supervisor I knew better. All I had to do was go home but my dude called me and said check you email 1st chance you get. 
60k job gone... I was a supervisor I knew better. All I had to do was go home but my dude called me and said check you email 1st chance you get. 
Was talking to my Mom on Tuesday back in may. She was on hospice care but laughing and at the stuff I was telling her that my son was doing. For a while she sounded like she was out of it so I said why don't you get some rest and Ill call you back on Thursday. She said ok and we got off the phone. I worked over nights and so when I came home Thursday morning my wife told me she passed away early that morning. I still feel bad cause I was going to call her that Wednesday but said naww I'll wait till Thursday. Even now ill find something and hear something and be like I gotta tell my mom about this then remember that she passed away.
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I only wish I had not been so damn spoiled and selfish toward my Grandmother... The only person who ALWAYS had my back through everything no matter what. Now that I'm grown... I understand that I took advantage of her in the worst of ways. Like, she needed me alot of times to help her and take her around to places but I act like I didn't own a phone or I was too busy trying to please a bitch who didn't do shit for me.
I was raised by my grandma from a baby until I was about 17 or 18 and left home. After I left and got introduced to these women and streets... I rarely even seen her. I remember how happy she was just to see me. Even just going to the greyhound track or taking her to the doctor for checkups.
Everybody knew I was her favorite... she even bought me a brand new car even though I didn't deserve it or really made time for her like I was suppose to.
She was put in a nursing home by my mother and developed dementia after only like 4 months there. I remember going back to Memphis (I was living in Chicago) and not even wanting to go to the nursing home and see her like that. She was losing weight, didn't remember my name, or anything.
She died maybe a months after me visiting her in 2007. Never said thanks or gave any type of apology.
Everytime I think about how selfish I was, I swear I just be like.... "If I die today... I wouldn't care. Niggas like me don't belong here". Honestly, even going through the extremes I've been through, I feel like I deserved it and that's why I don't even complain about it.
That's a big part of why I TRY to be a good person to other people and TRY to do right. I think about her everyday and just regret it all.
There's alot more details to this but I'm not typing all that.
I wish I had left work early that day instead of staying late to check my personal email. Me and my niggas were having a picture battle(seeing who could post the finest chicks). I didnt know what flicker was back then. I click on the link and my niggas page came up as my Manager came around the corner.
Damn that's fucked up!!!!
I only wish I had not been so damn spoiled and selfish toward my Grandmother... The only person who ALWAYS had my back through everything no matter what. Now that I'm grown... I understand that I took advantage of her in the worst of ways. Like, she needed me alot of times to help her and take her around to places but I act like I didn't own a phone or I was too busy trying to please a bitch who didn't do shit for me.
I was raised by my grandma from a baby until I was about 17 or 18 and left home. After I left and got introduced to these women and streets... I rarely even seen her. I remember how happy she was just to see me. Even just going to the greyhound track or taking her to the doctor for checkups.
Everybody knew I was her favorite... she even bought me a brand new car even though I didn't deserve it or really made time for her like I was suppose to.
She was put in a nursing home by my mother and developed dementia after only like 4 months there. I remember going back to Memphis (I was living in Chicago) and not even wanting to go to the nursing home and see her like that. She was losing weight, didn't remember my name, or anything.
She died maybe a months after me visiting her in 2007. Never said thanks or gave any type of apology.
Everytime I think about how selfish I was, I swear I just be like.... "If I die today... I wouldn't care. Niggas like me don't belong here". Honestly, even going through the extremes I've been through, I feel like I deserved it and that's why I don't even complain about it.
That's a big part of why I TRY to be a good person to other people and TRY to do right. I think about her everyday and just regret it all.
There's alot more details to this but I'm not typing all that.
This post is making me go see big mama this weekend and give her a kiss. Definitely need to let her know how much I appreciate her.
Six months probation.
The incident happened on January 18th, by December 21st everything was all over with. It all worked out. Nothing keeps you out of trouble better than being a college student.
It was a lot to go through at that age, though. A few times I had to leave school mid-week to appear in court and shit like that.
HAD TO SEE MY GRAND MOTHER IN THE ER ROOM..SHE WAS 2 HOURS AWAY.I STOPPED ON THE WAY TO GET A BLACK AND MILD.I WAS BOUT 20 MIN AWAY. I GOT TO THE HOSPITAL AND SHE DIED 5MIN BEFORE I GOT THERE! HAVENT SMOKED SINCE
Funny how things like that stick with you. Your smoke fix cost you a chance to see your grandmother one last time. Deep shit, bro.
I wish I had left work early that day instead of staying late to check my personal email. Me and my niggas were having a picture battle(seeing who could post the finest chicks). I didnt know what flicker was back then. I click on the link and my niggas page came up as my Manager came around the corner.
60K down the drain. Even if you have a better job now, I know that shit still rings with you.
I only wish I had not been so damn spoiled and selfish toward my Grandmother... The only person who ALWAYS had my back through everything no matter what. Now that I'm grown... I understand that I took advantage of her in the worst of ways. Like, she needed me alot of times to help her and take her around to places but I act like I didn't own a phone or I was too busy trying to please a bitch who didn't do shit for me.
I was raised by my grandma from a baby until I was about 17 or 18 and left home. After I left and got introduced to these women and streets... I rarely even seen her. I remember how happy she was just to see me. Even just going to the greyhound track or taking her to the doctor for checkups.
Everybody knew I was her favorite... she even bought me a brand new car even though I didn't deserve it or really made time for her like I was suppose to.
She was put in a nursing home by my mother and developed dementia after only like 4 months there. I remember going back to Memphis (I was living in Chicago) and not even wanting to go to the nursing home and see her like that. She was losing weight, didn't remember my name, or anything.
She died maybe a months after me visiting her in 2007. Never said thanks or gave any type of apology.
Everytime I think about how selfish I was, I swear I just be like.... "If I die today... I wouldn't care. Niggas like me don't belong here". Honestly, even going through the extremes I've been through, I feel like I deserved it and that's why I don't even complain about it.
That's a big part of why I TRY to be a good person to other people and TRY to do right. I think about her everyday and just regret it all.
There's alot more details to this but I'm not typing all that.
you are a piece of shit
HAD TO SEE MY GRAND MOTHER IN THE ER ROOM..SHE WAS 2 HOURS AWAY.I STOPPED ON THE WAY TO GET A BLACK AND MILD.I WAS BOUT 20 MIN AWAY. I GOT TO THE HOSPITAL AND SHE DIED 5MIN BEFORE I GOT THERE! HAVENT SMOKED SINCE
that probably will save you from developing lung cancer
sometimes things make sense...
after the first post and the cooler post, i agree....I am audi
I wish that I played my senior year of highschool football..
I wish I never stay in NYC and left with my father...
I wish I never stay in NYC and left with my father...
Daily......
Damn C...Sorry to hear that.HAD TO SEE MY GRAND MOTHER IN THE ER ROOM..SHE WAS 2 HOURS AWAY.I STOPPED ON THE WAY TO GET A BLACK AND MILD.I WAS BOUT 20 MIN AWAY. I GOT TO THE HOSPITAL AND SHE DIED 5MIN BEFORE I GOT THERE! HAVENT SMOKED SINCE
Too many things, man... Life is crazy. Stuff goin on right now, I can't speak on. I regret taking education for granted; Being introduced to weed & alcohol at 13. Not being focused on goals I set for myself. Not developing self discipline, even now. But most of all, disappointing people who expect so much from me. But the thing that hurts me to this day is me not being there for my grandmother during her final year. She found out she had terminal lung cancer in Feb. of 2006. She was gone Oct. of the same year. I was in such denial. I didn't want to believe what was happening. So I wouldn't go visit her. I didn't want to see her like that. This woman was the glue to my immediate family. My mother got caught up in drugs and if it wasn't my GM, I'd probably be dead or in jail. We got kicked of our house, it was my grannie who was there. Water & lights got turned off? She was there. I remember calling her when I missed the school bus, so many times, 5 in the morning. She's really the reason I made it.
Real shit.
I wouldn't have bought a house with a dumbass exwife. Fucked my whole shit up, my credit score was 777 when I met this bitch and slowly, look...I know longer mix finances with love. I keep them shits as separate as possible.
However, had I NOT bought that house it probbly would have prolonged my marriage and I wouldn't be with the woman I"m with now who is the mother of my newborn son whom I'm just thrilled about and a newly proud father.
As a matter of fact, 2 years into buying that house my ex cheated on me. She cheated on me with with a dude she was interviewing for a book she was working on while on a trip I PAID for to support her career.... And therefore, she caught me cheating in that very house with my current ol lady, who I get along with well, she makes me laugh, we just had a handsome lil fella together, our families love us on both sides and I couldn't be any happier.
But I had to foreclose on that house dawg. Mostly due to that sorry bitch wouldn't keep a job during the marriage and put the financial strain on me plus the house wouldn't sell because of the recession.
But like I said, I can't regret it fully, just the financial aspect of it all.
However, had I NOT bought that house it probbly would have prolonged my marriage and I wouldn't be with the woman I"m with now who is the mother of my newborn son whom I'm just thrilled about and a newly proud father.
As a matter of fact, 2 years into buying that house my ex cheated on me. She cheated on me with with a dude she was interviewing for a book she was working on while on a trip I PAID for to support her career.... And therefore, she caught me cheating in that very house with my current ol lady, who I get along with well, she makes me laugh, we just had a handsome lil fella together, our families love us on both sides and I couldn't be any happier.
But I had to foreclose on that house dawg. Mostly due to that sorry bitch wouldn't keep a job during the marriage and put the financial strain on me plus the house wouldn't sell because of the recession.
But like I said, I can't regret it fully, just the financial aspect of it all.
a shitload of stories that deal with progression but i'll keep this 1 short cause it's about 1 of my bestfriends..almost 11yrs ago my bestfriend wanted me to roll with him and his other boy to a party..it was kinda chilly that night plus i was hanging with family so i decided not to go.. both my boys end up getting shot in a failed attempted robbery.. they both lived but 9 months later my bestfriend died from a seizure that pretty much was complications from the bullet..june was the 10 yr anniversary of his death..his bday is in a few weekshe would've been 36..still the most painful death of a love one i ever went thru..still have dreams about dude from time to time that seem fucking real and always hurts when i wake up and find out it's a dream..if i could've convinced him to fall back like i told him to and meet up the next day he would've never got shot
..his bday is in a few weekshe would've been 36..still the most painful death of a love one i ever went thru..still have dreams about dude from time to time that seem fucking real and always hurts when i wake up and find out it's a dream..if i could've convinced him to fall back like i told him to and meet up the next day he would've never got shot
Some of these stories... just wow!
My dad phones me last month . Your uncle has been diagnosed with TB.
I tell my dad TB can be cured , he will be back to normal .
Last week my dad phones me again , please go see your uncle .
I could not make it that day , so I went the next day .
I arrived at 2:15pm , he stopped breathing at 2:30pm .
They managed to bring him back at 2:45 pm .
At 9pm he finally passed away .
I had to identify his body on Wednesday, Friday I brought his body home and buried him
On surtuday .
I had 6 weeks to visit him daily in hospital and was too busy . The day I visit him . Is the day he passed away .
I tell my dad TB can be cured , he will be back to normal .
Last week my dad phones me again , please go see your uncle .
I could not make it that day , so I went the next day .
I arrived at 2:15pm , he stopped breathing at 2:30pm .
They managed to bring him back at 2:45 pm .
At 9pm he finally passed away .
I had to identify his body on Wednesday, Friday I brought his body home and buried him
On surtuday .
I had 6 weeks to visit him daily in hospital and was too busy . The day I visit him . Is the day he passed away .
Damn man. procrastination is a motherfucker.
I shoulda took the internship with Microsoft (which would have definitely led to full time employment) back in 1992.
I've done ok with my career, but I often wonder where I might be financially if I had parlayed that internship into a full time gig with them with stock options back in 92.
I've done ok with my career, but I often wonder where I might be financially if I had parlayed that internship into a full time gig with them with stock options back in 92.
getting out of the military was probably a mistake. part of the reason I got out was due to the fact that I I'm really bad with poor leadership. I've never just been able to shutup and let their leadership be poor, which has caused me many a problem in my life.
In 99, I got out of the Navy do to a woman that I am no longer with. had I stayed in I would be retiring next month. now, there is no guarantee that I would have been able to stay out of trouble enough to make it to retirement, but the fact that my retirement date is coming up next month and I could be receiving a check for the rest of my life had I stayed in makes me wish I would have done things different.
the good news is, the government job I'm in now counts my military time toward retirement, and I could leave in five years. this is something that I will probably do if my business is as profitable as I think it will be. still I wonder about the Navy days, but I was probably too hard headed to make it to 20 years safely. making enemies several pay grades above by questioning their leadership tactics and abilities was probably not the brightest of ideas lol, but I damn near have been poking the bear since I was born
In 99, I got out of the Navy do to a woman that I am no longer with. had I stayed in I would be retiring next month. now, there is no guarantee that I would have been able to stay out of trouble enough to make it to retirement, but the fact that my retirement date is coming up next month and I could be receiving a check for the rest of my life had I stayed in makes me wish I would have done things different.
the good news is, the government job I'm in now counts my military time toward retirement, and I could leave in five years. this is something that I will probably do if my business is as profitable as I think it will be. still I wonder about the Navy days, but I was probably too hard headed to make it to 20 years safely. making enemies several pay grades above by questioning their leadership tactics and abilities was probably not the brightest of ideas lol, but I damn near have been poking the bear since I was born
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