N’awlins mental health thread edit tried hangin myself

[tallblacknyc]

I feel like I’m holding on to see my kids graduate and then what?
I give so much I have nothing left for myself
I broke down crying the other day outta no where
I just wanted to go back home to NO and hug my pops

Grandkids..it ain’t nothing like hearing stories from your grandparents.. your kids gonna have kids and you can completely uncensored cause once you reach a certain age pc conversations go out the window.. you can tell your grandsons about loving pretty feet and licking booty.. they gonna be like granddad is a perv but they gonna enjoy every moment of them conversations especially when they get older..than they’ll eventually pass on the stories to the next in lines.. you got generations worth of wealth just off them stories that can never be taken away

 

[RoadRage]

The wife doesn’t want a divorce anymore but I feel like we can’t get on the same page
The job pays decently and I’m truly thankful but fuck it makes me want start the purge (food delivery for performance food group/service)
Its like I only get/be happy making others happy
If I find/search for peace it’s called being selfish
My Godbrother said it best “ when they find out you’re not Superman, they treat you worse than Clark Kent”

Do you think the testosterone supplement you are taking is playing a role?

 

[nawlinsn931]

Do you think the testosterone supplement you are taking is playing a role?

Nah it was like this before
If anything it’s probably heightened it

 

[johniz]

There's always tomorrow if you give it a chance.

Forget this talk.

Go out and volunter your time to people with sever disabilities. I'm talking people in wheelchairs who have never known freedom like ytou and I know at the basic level ... and still look forward to tomorrow.

Try that first before making any rash decisions. I can't be the only other alumni of AEU ... or is it BEU?

 

[heavyhand]

Take time off to travel brother, thanks to covid realised I accumulated 70 leave days off work. I was getting pissed off at the smallest things till someone asked when's the last time you took a real break and I couldn't even come up with an answer

 

[nawlinsn931]

 

[Mask]

I’m still dealing with the thoughts that people are better off without me
My oldest is going to navy
My oldest son walks the stage tmw for hs graduation my other sons are growing into great student athletes my daughters are daddy’s girls
But for some reason I just feel like if I hit the lottery I’ll leave it all to them and kill myself

The wife doesn’t want a divorce anymore but I feel like we can’t get on the same page
The job pays decently and I’m truly thankful but fuck it makes me want start the purge (food delivery for performance food group/service)
Its like I only get/be happy making others happy
If I find/search for peace it’s called being selfish
My Godbrother said it best “ when they find out you’re not Superman, they treat you worse than Clark Kent”

Fam I think I figured out

So you’re happy when you help people
Youre kids are a blessing
You want come back to the NO for a visit



I’m combine all of that to keep the happiness and establishing a new purpose

So Check this out
Don’t play the lottery
You come down to the city find a couple gals that’s wifey material…Drop a load in them

This way the need to be a great father will stay present….
Frequently trips to the city(peace of mind for a while)…..
ur enjoyment which is Helping folks will/could still be there

 

[RoadRage]

Nah it was like this before
If anything it’s probably heightened it

Yo bro, go to therapy, I know there's a stigma for us going, but fuck the bullshit, sometimes you got to do what's best for you .

 

[mcguyver]

Hit me when you go to chitown
We'll see if im.free

Fa sho

Can one or both y'all slap the shit outta shaddyvillebitch?

 

[nawlinsn931]

Yeah it’s time to take a break from everything
I’m so ready to fight at the drop of a hat
I’m mad as fuck at work (the way the warehouse loads the trailer And the way our day is routed)
Gone do more reading, increase my exercise (always be in there for hours at a time)
Study and pass this tanker endorsement test
Teach baby girl how to tie her shoes and ride without training wheels
But I def gotta get the fuck outta TN soon!

 

[Lexx Diamond]

Yeah it’s time to take a break from everything
I’m so ready to fight at the drop of a hat
I’m mad as fuck at work (the way the warehouse loads the trailer And the way our day is routed)
Gone do more reading, increase my exercise (always be in there for hours at a time)
Study and pass this tanker endorsement test
Teach baby girl how to tie her shoes and ride without training wheels
But I def gotta get the fuck outta TN soon!

With a tank endorsement you can drive concrete mixer trucks. I did it for years. Best and easiest money I ever made trucking. The only thing you have to lift are the extra chutes. If you need them.

 

[CoTtOnMoUf]

Damn, nawlinsn931, we are here for you fam. With the state of this upcoming economy and the crazy people that are running this country into the ground, I too sometimes feel stressed and not at my best, but I have a lot of people that depend on me to remain above ground. I'm not close to doing that but lately, I feel bummed out sometimes and that rarely occurs with me.

Keep thinking about your family that needs you and depends on your strength and guidance. They need you.... BGOL needs you.

P.S.

We forgive you for voting for Trump, lol!

 

[TEN]

glad you remembered what is worth living for.

I wish you the very best and remind you this is always your online home.

 

[SamSneed]

thread from Jan and I missed it

I’m glad you’re there bro

I’ve known you had some issues but not this far

Yrs ago I wanted the same, the never ending pain to stop

I stopped heavy drinking and a lot got clear. I gave up on thinking I’d get closure from the cause

I just moved on with my thoughts. I’ve done mushrooms, small amounts until I got to a point where I really got into my mind. I saw my peaceful place.

I hope you feel better bro , hit me up anytime

 

[nawlinsn931]

Just drove thru ky during the tornado in the work truck
I didn’t think about dying I just wanted to be home with my family
My oldest walk the stage tmw and I couldn’t be prouder
I appreciate yall for real

 

[TIMEISMONEY]

I’m still dealing with the thoughts that people are better off without me
My oldest is going to navy
My oldest son walks the stage tmw for hs graduation my other sons are growing into great student athletes my daughters are daddy’s girls
But for some reason I just feel like if I hit the lottery I’ll leave it all to them and kill myself

It’s obvious you’re feeling a lot of guilt for the stresses you’ve caused and not being there or not being perfect. That’s ok

 

[Strait_Laced]

Just drove thru ky during the tornado in the work truck
I didn’t think about dying I just washed to be home ugh my family
My oldest walk the stage tmw and I couldn’t be prouder
I appreciate yall for real

keep on pushing breh, one day at a time, one hill
we got one thing in common...our franchises both got rid of baggage...better days ahead

 

[phanatic]

Just drove thru ky during the tornado in the work truck
I didn’t think about dying I just washed to be home ugh my family
My oldest walk the stage tmw and I couldn’t be prouder
I appreciate yall for real

I have some personal experience with what you're going through. Feel free to message me and we can talk shit through. I get it. I really, really do.

 

[LongLocs85]

U voted for Biden huh?

In a serious thread like this, only a fuck nigga or a low class crakka would post such an irrelevant question... MF claims to hate politics, but can't refrain from mentioning anything related to it...

Take time off to travel brother, thanks to covid realised I accumulated 70 leave days off work. I was getting pissed off at the smallest things till someone asked when's the last time you took a real break and I couldn't even come up with an answer

Man this is sound advice... Was having this conversation last month with a coworker who had not taken a vacation in 5yrs... She was planning on taking a Friday half day for her birthday - that had me disappointed... Somehow I convinced her to book a cruise dolo... She came back from that trip with her mindset shifted with positivity

@nawlinsn931 you got this bruh, it ain't easy but reconnect with positive things in the past that brought you joy... Jot down the highlights of your days and reflect on them weekly

 

[nawlinsn931]

Today’s my oldest son birthday and he’s in the er for attempting suicide
Sunday I had to talk my mom out of feeling like her life was over
I can’t do life without them I’m gone crash the fuck out I don’t know what else to do

 

[Politic Negro]

Today’s my oldest son birthday and he’s in the er for attempting suicide
Sunday I had to talk my mom out of feeling like her life was over
I can’t do life without them I’m gone crash the fuck out I don’t know what else to do

I'm no therapist but the three of y'all need to sit down together and air it all out.

Did any generation before your mom commit suicide?

 

[nawlinsn931]

I'm no therapist but the three of y'all need to sit down together and air it all out.

Did any generation before your mom commit suicide?

I’ll have to ask my aunts
It’s kinda not spoken about in the family but depression does run in family

 

[Megatron X]

Why would you want self delete? Suicidal tendencies are no joke.

 

[Politic Negro]

I’ll have to ask my aunts
It’s kinda not spoken about in the family but depression does run in family

Gotta have that convo

 

[keone]

I’ll have to ask my aunts
It’s kinda not spoken about in the family but depression does run in family

i will say this look into ur history
what ur parents or grands did
and do anything to get rid off of this

 

[nawlinsn931]

i will say this look into ur history
what ur parents or grands did
and do anything to get rid off of this

Yeah I told my mom/dad I feel like it’s been a curse
My great aunt the only one that spoke on it

 

[0utsyder]

Whut up dum-dum? How are you feeling?

Yeah I told my mom/dad I feel like it’s been a curse
My great aunt the only one that spoke on it

Yeah I have a couple of schizophrenia aunts and uncles, but that hasn't manifested in any of their nieces and nephews...

FCUK YOU I CAN TELL WHOEVER I WANT TO ABOUT OUR FAMILY!!!! You all aren't the boss of me! I'll fight all 18 of ya!!!

 

[nawlinsn931]