Just wanted to say.....

[onyxfemme]

Thank you to all of you who have reached out to me in my time of sorrow. Times are really hard for me mentally & spiritually right now but knowing that people genuinely care makes each day a little more livable. Some may or may not know that me and my two youngest were supposed to have been in that car w/ Smoove but he told me that he wanted to spend some bonding time w/ his daughter since he had been working so much. And I didnt argue or fuss but said ok...I have seen the accident pics....Chances are I wouldnt be here today if I went...
I said all of that to say...Be thankful for life!
LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST EACH DAY WITH NO REGRETS! Love & Respect your loved ones...Tell them daily!

(((((((((((((((HUGZ)))))))))))))))))))))

Thanks again,

Onyx

 

[KATDADDY]

HOLD YA HEAD UP ,,WE ALL HERE (WELL I AM ) HERE IS YOU NEED TO TALK,, LOSING A LOVE ONE IS NEVER EASY

 

[WhenTheGoingGetsTtuff]

I'm very sorry to hear about your loss ma'am. I recently lost my husband in a similar way.

 

[Mo-Better]

Your going to be alright. Welcome back Baby!

 

[LoneStar29]

I'm very sorry to hear about your loss ma'am. I recently lost my husband in a similar way.

You did?? I'm sorry girl, my condolences

 

[CT's Finest]

Take it one day at a time. Continue to talk, type, cry, etc. it all out. It's a process, but you can and will get through it...

 

[dHustla]

 

[MCP]

Like CT mentioned take things one day at a time.

If you ever need to talk, we'll be for you.

 

[Izayoi]

Hugs Onyx.

I'm very sorry to hear about your loss ma'am. I recently lost my husband in a similar way.

LI I wondered about this because you post of him in the past tense, but you wrote so glowingly about him it didn't seem like a divorce thing. I'm sorry to hear that sis.

 

[onyxfemme]

Thanks everyone...Talking helps...I am so thankful that he worked and was an honorably discharge Marine Veteran...His children are well taken care of and that is a blessing. Tomorrow is going to be a rough one for me because it is his birthday.

Legacy_Infinity: I am going to PM you. Anyone who has lost a love like I have and can move on, I need to talk to. Life is so hard these days. It would be nice to talk to another sister who has been there.


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To everyone!

 

[melonpecan]

Onyz and LI, I hope and I know that the both of you will see better days, (dang that grammar was horrible). We meet people for a reason, to teach us how to become better people through our experiences with each other. Be grateful for the times that you had with your loved ones...when that better day come you will see what they were preparing you for...

 

[SickMyDuck]

Good to hear from you mama!! Hold your head... we're here for you!

 

[WhenTheGoingGetsTtuff]

Thanks everyone...Talking helps...I am so thankful that he worked and was an honorably discharge Marine Veteran...His children are well taken care of and that is a blessing. Tomorrow is going to be a rough one for me because it is his birthday.

Legacy_Infinity: I am going to PM you. Anyone who has lost a love like I have and can move on, I need to talk to. Life is so hard these days. It would be nice to talk to another sister who has been there.


(((((((((((((((((((((HUGZ))))))))))))))))))))))))

To everyone!

Hey there. I cant say i moved on. I can't go in his office. I still keep his closet as it was. My birthday i spent the whole day locked in his closet. I bury myself under his clothes. When he died i went a little crazy. I think it's rare when people have soulmates. He was my soulmate. And he's gone. And it's like i'm gone. My whole half of me is gone and allt hat's left is what is stuck here. We have children. Someone has to care for them. The worst part of it is the constant pain. The constant and total pain i feel everyday. I wake up and he's not in the bed. It's been almost a year now and he's still not there. Every quiet moment i get i think of him. I yearn for him. I hate going to bed. I go for days at a time still without sleeping so i don't have to dream about him. People tell you to move on and it'll get better. Not for me it doesn't. That's a lie. I still wake up crying. Sometimes i break down at doing something or having to handle something he used to do. It's all very hard and i don't see it getting any better. We went from years and years together, every singel day. To just nothing. Every good moment and memory i've ever had has had him in it. So yeah sis i completely understand the pain you're going through and if you wish to talk to me about it. I'm all ears.

 

[onyxfemme]

I feel you ma. If no one else feels your pain I do. For me I had to pack all of his things away and donate it. I put up some of his military and football stuff for our son and his daughter to have when they get older. I told him I didnt want him to rearrange our bedroom but he did right before he passed. Now our computers/desk face each other. I dont like this because I keep looking over at his desk. Which is a constant reminder. I dont know anything about unhooking anything so it will stay like that until I move within a month.

I have so much to say to you, but I wont here. I will send you a PM.

Hey there. I cant say i moved on. I can't go in his office. I still keep his closet as it was. My birthday i spent the whole day locked in his closet. I bury myself under his clothes. When he died i went a little crazy. I think it's rare when people have soulmates. He was my soulmate. And he's gone. And it's like i'm gone. My whole half of me is gone and allt hat's left is what is stuck here. We have children. Someone has to care for them. The worst part of it is the constant pain. The constant and total pain i feel everyday. I wake up and he's not in the bed. It's been almost a year now and he's still not there. Every quiet moment i get i think of him. I yearn for him. I hate going to bed. I go for days at a time still without sleeping so i don't have to dream about him. People tell you to move on and it'll get better. Not for me it doesn't. That's a lie. I still wake up crying. Sometimes i break down at doing something or having to handle something he used to do. It's all very hard and i don't see it getting any better. We went from years and years together, every singel day. To just nothing. Every good moment and memory i've ever had has had him in it. So yeah sis i completely understand the pain you're going through and if you wish to talk to me about it. I'm all ears.

 

[LoneStar29]

Hey there. I cant say i moved on. I can't go in his office. I still keep his closet as it was. My birthday i spent the whole day locked in his closet. I bury myself under his clothes. When he died i went a little crazy. I think it's rare when people have soulmates. He was my soulmate. And he's gone. And it's like i'm gone. My whole half of me is gone and allt hat's left is what is stuck here. We have children. Someone has to care for them. The worst part of it is the constant pain. The constant and total pain i feel everyday. I wake up and he's not in the bed. It's been almost a year now and he's still not there. Every quiet moment i get i think of him. I yearn for him. I hate going to bed. I go for days at a time still without sleeping so i don't have to dream about him. People tell you to move on and it'll get better. Not for me it doesn't. That's a lie. I still wake up crying. Sometimes i break down at doing something or having to handle something he used to do. It's all very hard and i don't see it getting any better. We went from years and years together, every singel day. To just nothing. Every good moment and memory i've ever had has had him in it. So yeah sis i completely understand the pain you're going through and if you wish to talk to me about it. I'm all ears.

*hugs* Sis

 

[WhenTheGoingGetsTtuff]

I feel you ma. If no one else feels your pain I do. For me I had to pack all of his things away and donate it. I put up some of his military and football stuff for our son and his daughter to have when they get older. I told him I didnt want him to rearrange our bedroom but he did right before he passed. Now our computers/desk face each other. I dont like this because I keep looking over at his desk. Which is a constant reminder. I dont know anything about unhooking anything so it will stay like that until I move within a month.

I have so much to say to you, but I wont here. I will send you a PM.

I don't even go into his office. At all. I can't stand to look at the things he had there and time he spent there. You have my sympathy. I'm glad you didn't wind up like me that's for sure. I was incapble of even leaving the house for a few months. I don't wish that hurt on anyone. You can hit me up on yahoo if you like. fineblkanfeminin is the name.

 

[WhenTheGoingGetsTtuff]

*hugs* Sis

Hugs to you. Thanks. Hugs to Ony too. This is the hardest thing we'll ever have to go through in life i think.

 

[spanishharlem]

My Heart Goes Out To You Onyx and LI
Be Strong Ladies. Take The Time
And Space You Need. ​