I've spoken openly of my drug usage in the past on the board I don't hide what I do and I'm not ashamed of it, at the end of the day it is only illegal not immoral. In 2001 I got the opportunity to get a 12 month working visa, 7 days later I was in a taxi getting high on my way to the airport, having made the decision to jet to Australia to get away from the life for a year. On returning I was good for over a year. Bumped into a girl (tall, slim, Jamaican an 8.5 all day) I used to fuck with back when I lived on the block who said she had missed me and wanted my kids, that's all I wanted back then a good girl and a family. Got myself checked out and came back negative for everthing. My dream was a possibility. By the time I realised the girl was on the pipe I was in to deep and eventually dragged me down to a level I had not been to before. Don't get it wrong it was not the worse case scenario but it was grimey hood stuff, gangstas, pimps and hoes. I managed to break away from the hood (Brixton) and went to live on the south coast for 4 years the occasssional relapse but nothing I used to beat myself up about. Things went bad for me in April last year and I had to return to South London. I got back with an ex-girlfriend of 20 years for convenient sex (unprotected). One night in January this year after a wild session I took a shower only to return to the bedroom to see the bitch spaced out on the bed wiith a hyperdermic sticking out of her fucking arm - I did not know she was into that shit, I don't and won't ever do needles.
For all that time I have been shitting bricks. I eventually got the courage to do what I had to do a couple of weeks back. Went into the clinic and gave up the blood and urine. Then the 2 week wait. Damn that wait was agony. Smoking 3 packs a day. My appointment was at 17:05 yesterday and I got there late. I gave the nurse my appointment card and she said "Oh, I'll see if they will still see you", shit, the "they" blew me away as I've heard that if there are 3 people in the room your getting bad news as one is the doctor, one the councilor and the other to pick you up off of the floor. Anyway I go in and it's just the nurse that I saw a fortnight ago, she says take a seat but before I sit she says "You'll be pleased to know that you tested negative for everything", the feeling of relief that washed over me was more euphoric than any high I've ever experienced.
I am now considering getting a tattoo "HIV-" on the inside of my arm, so that if I ever EVEN think of pushing up in a chick raw again it is there to remind me of those 2 weeks I had to wait.
Tested negative for:
People it ain't easy but it is better to know and get help than to live in the dark.
For all that time I have been shitting bricks. I eventually got the courage to do what I had to do a couple of weeks back. Went into the clinic and gave up the blood and urine. Then the 2 week wait. Damn that wait was agony. Smoking 3 packs a day. My appointment was at 17:05 yesterday and I got there late. I gave the nurse my appointment card and she said "Oh, I'll see if they will still see you", shit, the "they" blew me away as I've heard that if there are 3 people in the room your getting bad news as one is the doctor, one the councilor and the other to pick you up off of the floor. Anyway I go in and it's just the nurse that I saw a fortnight ago, she says take a seat but before I sit she says "You'll be pleased to know that you tested negative for everything", the feeling of relief that washed over me was more euphoric than any high I've ever experienced.
I am now considering getting a tattoo "HIV-" on the inside of my arm, so that if I ever EVEN think of pushing up in a chick raw again it is there to remind me of those 2 weeks I had to wait.
Tested negative for:
- HIV
- Hepatitis B & C
- Syphallis
- Gonerhea
- Clamydia
- Herpes
People it ain't easy but it is better to know and get help than to live in the dark.
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...that statement is incredibly subjective my friend. stay healthy and stuff though, didnt know you were ever a smoker.
