I know some how some way this is going to really end badly for me, but this has been kind of fuggin with my head.. because it's recent thing.
Recently I met this female, that i didn't think I was really going to like, but after a few weeks I started really enjoying her company. Other than some minor issues she has a good head on her shoulders, and she can take care of her business. The longer I knew here the more I was really starting to get into her. So one night I was going to pick her up but we ended up sitting at her place watching TV, and playing video games and just messing around. We weren't like a real couple or anything like that so I knew she was seeing other dudes, and She knew I was seeing other females. We hadn't reached that exclusive thing yet, and we hadn't even decided that we were going to ever take it there..... So with that said on night I'm at her place hanging out and this dude calls her and ask if he can come over, she tells him no, and that she was on her way to hang out with me. I don't think she was in a relationship or anything like that with this dude, but I can tell he was probably a lot higher in her line up than I was, also She and he had known each other for a long time, so I could tell that there was something there that was more than what we had, we had only known each other for a couple of months. I was a little bothered, but at the same time I understood that she was a single woman and entitled to her own space to do as she pleases.
So we are still messing around at her house a few hours later, and it's late, and there's a big thunderstorm, so she tells me to just spend the night there and leave in the morning. The next morning things get a little bit intimate and I end up leaving late that morning. Later that afternoon I was surfing the internet and I decided to call her and ask her if she wanted to go catch a movie. She said maybe but she needed to check on something...some one had told her that the guy who called her while I was over there was in some kind of accident....She referred to the dude using his nickname which was just a short version of his real name, just by chance I was surfing though the local newspaper web site while we were talking and I see that there was a car crash that killed the driver that morning. I verified the dude's full name and it was the dude that called her that night while I was there at her house. He had been killed in some kind of car accident less than 4 miles from her house. I've been trying to do something to make up for this, but I can't figure out what to do.
She blamed herself for not letting him come over. I feel bad because, Inside knew there were some feelings for this dude, and I picked up on that when she was talking to him. So I should have just left, and respected the fact that he was in her life first and probably had much better intentions than I did. Also I feel twice as bad that I'm the person that had to tell her that he died in a car crash less than 2 miles from her house less a little less than 4 hours after talking to her. I feel like I owe her something, I just don't know what I'm supposed to do. In a way I was really starting to develop some feelings for her, but now I feel like I kind of fugged her over in some way. Hopefully posting this here doesn't come back to bite me in the ass.
Recently I met this female, that i didn't think I was really going to like, but after a few weeks I started really enjoying her company. Other than some minor issues she has a good head on her shoulders, and she can take care of her business. The longer I knew here the more I was really starting to get into her. So one night I was going to pick her up but we ended up sitting at her place watching TV, and playing video games and just messing around. We weren't like a real couple or anything like that so I knew she was seeing other dudes, and She knew I was seeing other females. We hadn't reached that exclusive thing yet, and we hadn't even decided that we were going to ever take it there..... So with that said on night I'm at her place hanging out and this dude calls her and ask if he can come over, she tells him no, and that she was on her way to hang out with me. I don't think she was in a relationship or anything like that with this dude, but I can tell he was probably a lot higher in her line up than I was, also She and he had known each other for a long time, so I could tell that there was something there that was more than what we had, we had only known each other for a couple of months. I was a little bothered, but at the same time I understood that she was a single woman and entitled to her own space to do as she pleases.
So we are still messing around at her house a few hours later, and it's late, and there's a big thunderstorm, so she tells me to just spend the night there and leave in the morning. The next morning things get a little bit intimate and I end up leaving late that morning. Later that afternoon I was surfing the internet and I decided to call her and ask her if she wanted to go catch a movie. She said maybe but she needed to check on something...some one had told her that the guy who called her while I was over there was in some kind of accident....She referred to the dude using his nickname which was just a short version of his real name, just by chance I was surfing though the local newspaper web site while we were talking and I see that there was a car crash that killed the driver that morning. I verified the dude's full name and it was the dude that called her that night while I was there at her house. He had been killed in some kind of car accident less than 4 miles from her house. I've been trying to do something to make up for this, but I can't figure out what to do.
She blamed herself for not letting him come over. I feel bad because, Inside knew there were some feelings for this dude, and I picked up on that when she was talking to him. So I should have just left, and respected the fact that he was in her life first and probably had much better intentions than I did. Also I feel twice as bad that I'm the person that had to tell her that he died in a car crash less than 2 miles from her house less a little less than 4 hours after talking to her. I feel like I owe her something, I just don't know what I'm supposed to do. In a way I was really starting to develop some feelings for her, but now I feel like I kind of fugged her over in some way. Hopefully posting this here doesn't come back to bite me in the ass.