I like how you said that Lonestar
For me I don't have a big frame of reference happy time bad time with exception of major deaths (bad times) otherwise I have a lot of joy in my everyday in many ways and some sadness too. Take it day by day, but if I had to pick a frame I LOVE being an adult. I know some folks love highschool/college but to me freedom is not having to answer to others or depend excessively on others to support you.
I would not trade this time for anything and Bi-girl PLEASE consider adoption if you are concerned you wont conceive. There's more than one way to be a mother and there are already plenty of babies on this planet that need love, support, and nurturing. It's never too late to be a positive influence in a life.