Gotta sit down for awhile. [UPDATE] A june 10th wellness check says he's OK.

nawlinsn931

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I been fighting this federal case for the last 3 yrs now from when I was a C.O. and I gotta self surrender Jan 2
It's an assault case, an inmate raped, sodimized, and stabbed a female counselor 22 times and left her for dead. I took him to intake, took off the cuffs, told him to submit to a search and he told me"I got the weapon on me, if you come close, I'm gone rape you like I did that bitch and gut you too" Lets just say it didn't go in his favor after that. Since then the prison admin has changed their stance AND stories about what happened and i wasn't even prosecuted by the state. This happened in 19.Feds picked it up in 20. I have to report to FCI Thompson by 2pm on Jan2. My attorneys are doing motions to get me released early, so i'm speaking that into existence. It would've been different if I had an attorney to start but I had a PD and she told me take the guilty plea. A week before court she removed herself via email. There's so much more involved in this case it would take forever to type. Got sentenced to 24 months but because of time served, taking the guilty plea, a proffer deal,etc i wont have to do that long.
 
I was already diagnosed with chronic PTSD, anxiety and depression before this case. Just went to my therapy session and they told me I have bipolar disorder and manic episodes. I feel like a failure and disappointment to my family and especially my kids. I guess I'll get my CDL when I get out and do the trucking thing. Every morning as Jan2 gets closer, it gets harder and harder not to take my own life. I got fucked over in my case ROYALLY.
 
I been fighting this federal case for the last 3 yrs now from when I was a C.O. and I gotta self surrender Jan 2
It's an assault case, an inmate raped, sodimized, and stabbed a female counselor 22 times and left her for dead. I took him to intake, took off the cuffs, told him to submit to a search and he told me"I got the weapon on me, if you come close, I'm gone rape you like I did that bitch and gut you too" Lets just say it didn't go in his favor after that. Since then the prison admin has changed their stance AND stories about what happened and i wasn't even prosecuted by the state. This happened in 19.Feds picked it up in 20. I have to report to FCI Thompson by 2pm on Jan2. My attorneys are doing motions to get me released early, so i'm speaking that into existence. It would've been different if I had an attorney to start but I had a PD and she told me take the guilty plea. A week before court she removed herself via email. There's so much more involved in this case it would take forever to type. Got sentenced to 24 months but because of time served, taking the guilty plea, a proffer deal,etc i wont have to do that long.

Stay low and keep it on the road. I hope your time is uneventful.

Did o'boy with the weapon who threatened to rape and gut you survive the interaction betwixt y'all?
 
I was already diagnosed with chronic PTSD, anxiety and depression before this case. Just went to my therapy session and they told me I have bipolar disorder and manic episodes. I feel like a failure and disappointment to my family and especially my kids. I guess I'll get my CDL when I get out and do the trucking thing. Every morning as Jan2 gets closer, it gets harder and harder not to take my own life. I got fucked over in my case ROYALLY.
Say fam…. Send me your info via DM…. I don’t have much power but as a brother from another…. I’ll stay in touch, just to keep your sanity
 
I was already diagnosed with chronic PTSD, anxiety and depression before this case. Just went to my therapy session and they told me I have bipolar disorder and manic episodes. I feel like a failure and disappointment to my family and especially my kids. I guess I'll get my CDL when I get out and do the trucking thing. Every morning as Jan2 gets closer, it gets harder and harder not to take my own life. I got fucked over in my case ROYALLY.

You ever see that professor crumble up that $20 and then ask his class if they still wanted it... msg being that the value of the item wasn't diminished just bc it was damaged.

Everyone... and I mean everyone... loves a good comeback story. Just be a little better tomorrow than today and by the end of the next few years people will marvel at the distance you've traveled.
 
What's the charge?
I got aggravated assault with serious to life threatening injuries and failure to adhere medical
1 he didn't go to the hospital,he got transferred to another prison
2 it was all hands on deck to save the female counselors life because she had to be life flight off the compound

whats crazy is that the inmate told the judge he knew he was wrong for raping the woman and for threatening me and told the judge he didn't think i belonged in prison
 
I was already diagnosed with chronic PTSD, anxiety and depression before this case. Just went to my therapy session and they told me I have bipolar disorder and manic episodes. I feel like a failure and disappointment to my family and especially my kids. I guess I'll get my CDL when I get out and do the trucking thing. Every morning as Jan2 gets closer, it gets harder and harder not to take my own life. I got fucked over in my case ROYALLY.
I know things are looking bleak, especially by it being so close to the holidays, but suicide is a permanent solution for a temporary problem.

I would advise you to consider an appeal and use a real lawyer. If thats not possible just do the sentence and use your time to reflect, study, learn and become an even better man for yourself and your family.

2 years may seem like a lot but it will go by no doubt and when you are on the other end of this, you are going to look back and not believe that you even considered harming yourself. Stay strong and be an example of how a real man handles adversity for your family.
 
I know things are looking bleak, especially by it being so close to the holidays, but suicide is a permanent solution for a temporary problem.

I would advise you to consider an appeal and use a real lawyer. If thats not possible just do the sentence and use your time to reflect, study, learn and become an even better man for yourself and your family.

2 years may seem like a lot but it will go by no doubt and when you are on the other end of this, you are going to look back and not believe that you even considered harming yourself. Stay strong and be an example of how a real man handles adversity for your family.
nah i'm gone take whatever class i can get my hands on to pass the time and they help get me credit to getting home sooner.
i'm just very upset i'm gone miss my oldest son graduation after all he's been through plus this summer my profile pic made the elite travel team for aau and may get invites to the adidas,puma, and nike circuit teams for 8th grade.
Got a real federal attorney out of Georgia and we're working on the sentence relief motion to get me home by the summer
 
I was already diagnosed with chronic PTSD, anxiety and depression before this case. Just went to my therapy session and they told me I have bipolar disorder and manic episodes. I feel like a failure and disappointment to my family and especially my kids. I guess I'll get my CDL when I get out and do the trucking thing. Every morning as Jan2 gets closer, it gets harder and harder not to take my own life. I got fucked over in my case ROYALLY.
You did what you did to protect one of your own AND yourself. I don't know the particulars of your case and the specific charges. I also suggest to study the law along with your attorneys, research similar cases and help defend yourself. Are you or were you also covered by the union? If so, the union may help or point you in the right direction for more assistance. Other than that, keep in touch with your family and keep your head high while maintaining a low profile.
 
When we fought in the cell he didn't have on cuffs
He admitted to raping the counselor, threatening me with a weapon, and was high on meth
Didn't go to the hospital,he sat in the cell from 630pm to 5am
Next thing i know they said he had broken ribs punctured lungs and internal bleeding
AINT NO FUCKING WAY HE SAT FOR ALMOST 12 HOURS WITH A PUNCTURED LUNG
he received a medical assessment at the prison and was medically cleared(meaning he had no injuries)
Me and my legal team are still trying figure out where the injuries came from
 
When we fought in the cell he didn't have on cuffs
He admitted to raping the counselor, threatening me with a weapon, and was high on meth
Didn't go to the hospital,he sat in the cell from 630pm to 5am
Next thing i know they said he had broken ribs punctured lungs and internal bleeding
AINT NO FUCKING WAY HE SAT FOR ALMOST 12 HOURS WITH A PUNCTURED LUNG
he received a medical assessment at the prison and was medically cleared(meaning he had no injuries)
Me and my legal team are still trying figure out where the injuries came from
Internal bleeding but sat 12hrs, seem like a rare case of surviving…but I’m no medic
 
nah i'm gone take whatever class i can get my hands on to pass the time and they help get me credit to getting home sooner.
i'm just very upset i'm gone miss my oldest son graduation after all he's been through plus this summer my profile pic made the elite travel team for aau and may get invites to the adidas,puma, and nike circuit teams for 8th grade.
Got a real federal attorney out of Georgia and we're working on the sentence relief motion to get me home by the summer
I wish you the best of luck my G, and I wished you got probation but it's fucked up that you're going through this shit.

Just know the BGOL family will be here when you get out and will welcome you back with open arms. We're our brother keeper.

All this shit we post and talk on BGOL but we know how to show empathy when it's needed for anyone going through a difficult time.

I believe you will come out better than ever and would be a success story or you can write a book about your life that will forever bring in money for you and your family after you're gone.

Yeah, you can bounce back with that CDL because that's where the money is at! Best wishes!
 
That's messed up, but sounds like they pinning things on you with no proof.

In the mean time, probably look at suing them back and recoup for wrongful conviction.

Don't stop fighting your case or give up. Just keep ya head up and read as much as possible in there, especially on the legal aspect.

Stay up
 
This too shall pass. I have tried a lot of federal cases in my life...some good results and some not so good.....seems like a raw deal from what you said, but this time will pass. With 24 months, they are probably sending you to a camp. LIke a school dorm.

Also, I knew taking the drug class would get 11 months knocked off. Check those things out that can reduce the sentence. Read and exercise.....and we will be awaiting your return.....
 
Stupid shit was the first appointed attorney told me that taking the guilty plea would give me a short time and get the charges lowered. I take the plea(I'm on video and never denied it) but the charges never get lowered. A week before court she removes herself from my case. It's a minimal security place and because of my mental health status and being a CO I would get classified different. Honestly I'm not worried about fights it's more the things I'll miss and time I won't get back from my family. How do I explain this to my 5yr old daughter?
 
I was already diagnosed with chronic PTSD, anxiety and depression before this case. Just went to my therapy session and they told me I have bipolar disorder and manic episodes. I feel like a failure and disappointment to my family and especially my kids. I guess I'll get my CDL when I get out and do the trucking thing. Every morning as Jan2 gets closer, it gets harder and harder not to take my own life. I got fucked over in my case ROYALLY.

STOP TALKIN THAT PITY WEAK FUCK BOY SHIT... Ok no doubt life is throwing you a curve ball, dont you know, life will never put you through shit you cant handle.

Your family will think the world of you, if you just do the time, and while you are there, use that time to study and get involved in the trucking world..

and come out, making money and holding it down.. like cant NOTHING STOP YO SHOW.... FUCK ALL THAT DEPRESSED BI POLAR SHIT,


YOU A GOD MUTHAFUCKA CONTROL YOUR THOUGHTS, VISUALIZE YOURSELF DOING THE TIME EASY... I fucking hate the waning

powers that be in Lousiana they fuckin STINK up THE WHOLE STATE...

fuck EM... TRUST ME... ITS JUST A SIMPLE LIFE TEST...STAY FOCUSED ON MAKING YOUR MONEY AND GETTING BACK TO YOUR FATHERLY DUTIES WHEN YOU COME OUT...

It could be a whole lot worse bruh, you could be doing life with NO second chance.....

FOCUS ON YOU EATIN THAT TIME UP AND COMING OUT A BIGGER BETTER MORE FOCUSED KNIGGA...

CONTROL YOUR THOUGHTS CONTROL YOUR DESTINY!!!
 
STOP TALKIN THAT PITY WEAK FUCK BOY SHIT... Ok no doubt life is throwing you a curve ball, dont you know, life will never put you through shit you cant handle.

Your family will think the world of you, if you just do the time, and while you are there, use that time to study and get involved in the trucking world..

and come out, making money and holding it down.. like cant NOTHING STOP YO SHOW.... FUCK ALL THAT DEPRESSED BI POLAR SHIT,


YOU A GOD MUTHAFUCKA CONTROL YOUR THOUGHTS, VISUALIZE YOURSELF DOING THE TIME EASY... I fucking hate the waning

powers that be in Lousiana they fuckin STINK up THE WHOLE STATE...

fuck EM... TRUST ME... ITS JUST A SIMPLE LIFE TEST...STAY FOCUSED ON MAKING YOUR MONEY AND GETTING BACK TO YOUR FATHERLY DUTIES WHEN YOU COME OUT...

It could be a whole lot worse bruh, you could be doing life with NO second chance.....

FOCUS ON YOU EATIN THAT TIME UP AND COMING OUT A BIGGER BETTER MORE FOCUSED KNIGGA...

CONTROL YOUR THOUGHTS CONTROL YOUR DESTINY!!!
I'm in TN but you right
Much appreciated
 
Stupid shit was the first appointed attorney told me that taking the guilty plea would give me a short time and get the charges lowered. I take the plea(I'm on video and never denied it) but the charges never get lowered. A week before court she removes herself from my case. It's a minimal security place and because of my mental health status and being a CO I would get classified different. Honestly I'm not worried about fights it's more the things I'll miss and time I won't get back from my family. How do I explain this to my 5yr old daughter?

You are NOT going to hurt yourself king.

Nope you are too blessed and too chosen

Your morals and ethics are too high

Man's law is fallible in God's eyes you are a good man loyal husband and loving father.

You are NOT going thru this alone.

Shoot me a PM.

And remember ignore the bullsh*t bgol got REAL skilled legal team. Do your studies ask questions here.

We GOT you.

You will tell your daughter and your wife and your son...

That you love them always will. You have to go away for awhile and they have to watch over each other. And continue to pray. You'll be back soon and you all are going to spend even MORE time together celebrating life.

Peace be upon you my brother.

“Do not lose hope, nor be sad.”​

 
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I'm in TN but you right
Much appreciated

TN aka Lower Egypt.... niiiiice!! Bruh the main thing you do, is let your family KNOW you got this, no fuckin TEARS

or sad sobby shit, your family is looking UP TO YOUR FOR SIGNS OF HOW TO DEAL WITH THIS.. IF THEY SEE YOU STRONG,

THEY WILL BE STRONG... GET ALL THAT SOBBY WOBBY FEELING SORRY FOR YOURSELF SHIT OUT... on your OWN BY YOURSELF..

if you have too.. DONT YOU FUCKIN DARE LET YOUR FAMILY SEE YOU SHED A FUCKIN TEAR... if you done so in the past,

act like that shit never happend, let your seeds KNOW what you expect from them while you are in there and how you are counting

on them to hold it down... Let your lady KNOW you will NOT dissappoint her.. Do your time.... keep to yourself, stay fuckin READING

and PLANNING ALL THE SHIT YOU ARE GOING TO DO WHEN YOU GET OUT...

I know more than a few cats that did time, got a serious skill while locked up, came out making loot, one cat made over a qtr

million, just counseling and advising people on court procedures, because thats all he studied when he was locked up for two years...

He charges for phone calls, and even more for private consultations, one thing he said was all lawyers are full of shit..

NONE OF THEM WILL ACTUALLY FIGHT FOR YOU, they ALL WILL FORCE YOU TO PLEAD.. EVERY FUCKIN SINGLE ONE OF THEM,

because its keeps the system flowing.....

but that shit dont matter now, all that matters is YOU STAYING FOCUSED... Making sure your family sees you standing strong,

from start to finish!!

Im telling you, just one fuckin day at a time... as it goes it will get easier and easier... Stay focused on your visions of getting out early,

and starting your own truckin business.... by the time you get out.... you should be ready to ROCK bruh!!!

again make sure your Family sees you STANDING STRONG..... reassure them you got this, things will get back and better when you get out,

and you are counting on THEM to hold it down!!!!

YOU GOT THIS BRUH!!!!
 
When we fought in the cell he didn't have on cuffs
He admitted to raping the counselor, threatening me with a weapon, and was high on meth
Didn't go to the hospital,he sat in the cell from 630pm to 5am
Next thing i know they said he had broken ribs punctured lungs and internal bleeding
AINT NO FUCKING WAY HE SAT FOR ALMOST 12 HOURS WITH A PUNCTURED LUNG
he received a medical assessment at the prison and was medically cleared(meaning he had no injuries)
Me and my legal team are still trying figure out where the injuries came from
High on meth or not, there is NO way he could have sat for almost 12 hours with a punctured lung and internal bleeding. From your description and the aforementioned charges, dude may have gotten a tune up from other COs after your encounter.

OR, you could have blacked out and tapped danced on ol dude. I'm a vet, and I've seen a lot of things happen when adrenaline is flowing and one is staring down certain death or severe bodily harm.

I'm certain there were some security camera "malfunctions"... and they cannot provide the footage. All your legal team needs to do is bring a little bit of doubt into the situation, but it may not be possible given your previous plea. However, that fact may help during your appeal.

But like everyone else said. Play the game that is in front of you, study your case with your legal team, do your time quietly, work on your CDL and studying for that for when you get out.
 
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