See, now this be that shyt I'm talking about!!!??? Silly woman, you didn't have an "awakening"!!! What you experienced was a dose of "reality" that you have been shielded from as a child and ignored as an adult, due to the lifestyle afforded you through, Disney / Hollywood. Unfortunately, for most black people anywhere on this planet, dealing with death and the "reality" of frailness, low value, and often unhealthiness of our mortality is a staple understanding learned at a very early age!!! I'm not mocking the death of her relatives, but what she experienced was an emotional situation that she has grossly misinterpreted. So now at 44 years old, you divorce your husband of 14 years to do precisely what??? You have now set yourself up to enter the twilight of your life / mortality to die alone but in search of happiness??? That is retarded thinking!!!