I'll Never be Who you want me to be

[NecroNecro]

I'll never be who you want me to be

You don't believe me,
I'll never be who you want me to be

Existing for me is void.
I am living in a false refection of true reality.
Hurt, confused, dismayed and struck by pride.
Hurt, confused, dismayed and struck by you.
Hurt confused, dismayed and struck by me.
I only seek calm and compassion in the storm that is my life.

Please do not bend me; I am fragile
Please do not test me; I break easily
Please do not leave me; I fall apart into pieces day by day

Still surrounded by blindness that holds me,
Still surrounded by darkness that bleeds me out,
I am surprisingly flying in a blue cloudy mist,
A bloue cloudy mist called my imagination,
Where dreams unfold and confusion makes sense,
And nonsense is the only sense,
And chaos is order.

Life has lost its sense of meaning in what you call sense
Life has loss its sense of meaning in what you call order
I only see darkness and so you refuse to see me

I exist by myself because I quietly lurk through life
I am the observer who watches and never participates
In fear I run in embarrassment of who I am

Searching for truth I endanger myself to feel alive​

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[ladyscorpio]

Now you know what am gonna have to do right....

 

[NecroNecro]

Beautiful Fall​

Standing on the ledge
Of a 16 story building
I jump and fall into wind; a beautiful fall

The same wind I feel around me...
Isn't it the same as breath in human speech?
The sounds I hear around me
Isn't it the same as the beats from my heart?

Everything is one and one is everything so I fall.
this will be the end of my life because I am void.
Slowly I fall and all meaning to life is gone.

Before my life the pieces of my physical being
Formed into my material self
And then my soul was built,
And since then has been dying and breaking.

Now as I am falling, my soul knows my body
They are partnered in a relationship of destruction.
My soul and body are now in parallel relationship to death.

When my body breaks I will be gone.
Pieces of me that were once formed will now be scattered.
I will be gone and dead with no place to go.......

 

[bigirl]

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[followup]

Beautiful Fall​

Standing on the ledge
Of a 16 story building
I jump and fall into wind; a beautiful fall

The same wind I feel around me...
Isn't it the same as breath in human speech?
The sounds I hear around me
Isn't it the same as the beats from my heart?

Everything is one and one is everything so I fall.
this will be the end of my life because I am void.
Slowly I fall and all meaning to life is gone.

Before my life the pieces of my physical being
Formed into my material self
And then my soul was built,
And since then has been dying and breaking.

Now as I am falling, my soul knows my body
They are partnered in a relationship of destruction.
My soul and body are now in parallel relationship to death.

When my body breaks I will be gone.
Pieces of me that were once formed will now be scattered.
I will be gone and dead with no place to go.......

Wow. This is beautiful. Thanks for sharing