No symphony for the Devil.
Dear,
I never called you out of your name. Yet you hurt me considerably with first your words then your physical actions.
You used words that did not call me by my given name. The rage from what you suffered in your childhood, you took out directly on me.
BTW, that was/is your therapist’s sanctification of your behavior correct? You can’t help yourself, but to continue the cycle of abuse!
Or was that just a well rehearsed excuse, disrespecting many persons who were abused as children.
Perhaps, it is only you by choice who continues to turn the wheel!
I’d known you seven years, and I believed you were such an excellent human being. The best of humanity’s accomplishments.
I know now I fell down into my own dreams of you, and you could do know wrong in my eyes.
One year in a relationship with you, I reaped things I did not sow.
I had to relinquish life rights because of the past actions of, “ Others “. Not only the horrendous childhood abuse you suffered, but wrongs committed not by me as you were an adult, but by others, and life!
I became older than the years I deserve.
Your therapist is wrong, you don’t suffer from post traumatic syndrome, you suffer PRESENT trauma.
Your family whom you so yearn.
The family you choose to falsify as a , “ Support “ System, is in truth a trauma cluster.
Not only are you used, as long as they speak that you are always in the right, their sins of YOUR pasts will never have to be condemned.
This is not true healing.
An then you went bankrupt.
You were stressed, emotionally and financially . . . and you and your tears would communicate such to me.
So I supported you, emotionally and financially . . . . and you took full advantage and nearly destroyed me, emotional, and financially. You also admitted such.
Instead of taking a bath in your own pity party, you and your therapist, your family with their guilt of actions and inaction, found it appropriate to make me responsible for your happiness and also the target of your unhappiness.
I guess people like you need targets so you do not have to look in a mirror.
Still, I will not believe you represent all.
You attacked me physically and mentally over time.
I know why. It was done to you when you had no one to defend you.
I have no sympathy for the devils whom did it to you.
But you had a choice.
