You a faggitWhen you make a thread like this you’ll get 2 replies and both will be encouraging you to pull the trigger.
You a faggitWhen you make a thread like this you’ll get 2 replies and both will be encouraging you to pull the trigger.
Looks like you're heading in the right direction brother! Never hesitate to lay it all out on the board if you ever feel this way again. You know we all got you!Ironic update. Been in the VA hospital since Friday awaiting a heart stress test due to chest pains. all test so far are good but the stress test will tell all. Keppra Meds had me wanting to Kill myself, now I am scrambling because I have so much left to do/fix. Grand kids oldest 18 youngest is 5 (I think its 12 of them)are all falling the fuck out worried. I sent a group text to all the kids the ex wife, and the Baby mama. (The wife and I split up for 4 years) I have only spoken to my ex, baby mama and three daughters. Out of my children the youngest daughter started texting me this morning so I called HER. The wife is down due to health issues. feels like an exodus. getting rid of the old fucked up so the new can have a chance at life without our tainted view. Any way Love me some BGOL. You Brothers Stay strong, Monitor your health. Stay up on your PSA (prostate info) A1C (diabetes info) somebody put a checklist of things we NEED to monitor to keep a jump on our health and post it. My 30 year wedding anniversary is today.
Glad to hear you figured what was causing those feelings and are in a much better place. Stay up brother!Ironic update. Been in the VA hospital since Friday awaiting a heart stress test due to chest pains. all test so far are good but the stress test will tell all. Keppra Meds had me wanting to Kill myself, now I am scrambling because I have so much left to do/fix. Grand kids oldest 18 youngest is 5 (I think its 12 of them)are all falling the fuck out worried. I sent a group text to all the kids the ex wife, and the Baby mama. (The wife and I split up for 4 years) I have only spoken to my ex, baby mama and three daughters. Out of my children the youngest daughter started texting me this morning so I called HER. The wife is down due to health issues. feels like an exodus. getting rid of the old fucked up so the new can have a chance at life without our tainted view. Any way Love me some BGOL. You Brothers Stay strong, Monitor your health. Stay up on your PSA (prostate info) A1C (diabetes info) somebody put a checklist of things we NEED to monitor to keep a jump on our health and post it. My 30 year wedding anniversary is today.
Ironic update. Been in the VA hospital since Friday awaiting a heart stress test due to chest pains. all test so far are good but the stress test will tell all. Keppra Meds had me wanting to Kill myself, now I am scrambling because I have so much left to do/fix. Grand kids oldest 18 youngest is 5 (I think its 12 of them)are all falling the fuck out worried. I sent a group text to all the kids the ex wife, and the Baby mama. (The wife and I split up for 4 years) I have only spoken to my ex, baby mama and three daughters. Out of my children the youngest daughter started texting me this morning so I called HER. The wife is down due to health issues. feels like an exodus. getting rid of the old fucked up so the new can have a chance at life without our tainted view. Any way Love me some BGOL. You Brothers Stay strong, Monitor your health. Stay up on your PSA (prostate info) A1C (diabetes info) somebody put a checklist of things we NEED to monitor to keep a jump on our health and post it. My 30 year wedding anniversary is today.
First of all, Happy AnniversaryIronic update. Been in the VA hospital since Friday awaiting a heart stress test due to chest pains. all test so far are good but the stress test will tell all. Keppra Meds had me wanting to Kill myself, now I am scrambling because I have so much left to do/fix. Grand kids oldest 18 youngest is 5 (I think its 12 of them)are all falling the fuck out worried. I sent a group text to all the kids the ex wife, and the Baby mama. (The wife and I split up for 4 years) I have only spoken to my ex, baby mama and three daughters. Out of my children the youngest daughter started texting me this morning so I called HER. The wife is down due to health issues. feels like an exodus. getting rid of the old fucked up so the new can have a chance at life without our tainted view. Any way Love me some BGOL. You Brothers Stay strong, Monitor your health. Stay up on your PSA (prostate info) A1C (diabetes info) somebody put a checklist of things we NEED to monitor to keep a jump on our health and post it. My 30 year wedding anniversary is today.
First of all, Happy Anniversary
Secondly, I told you, tomorrow has the probability for possibilities.
I was feeling like shit. Broke as fuck living in a house I couldn't afford to fucking live in but not wanting to move because I don't want to fucking pack (I'm serious)
I went through Trajector Medical to get my disability rating from the VA increased from 10% ($140) to 70% ($1530) Then on my own I put in a supplemental claim for PTSD (they rated me 70% which pushed my 70% to 90% with their bullshit math) now I'm at 90% ($2000) with 4 more supplemental claims to go to get the full 100% ($3400)
With the $2000 I can pay my mortgage and pay down my debt and now I can breathe when I add in the money I make from my government job.
I went from feeling like I wanted to punch my own ticket (but not doing it because I was scared I'd miss and fuck up my life more) to actually feeling positive about the day when I wake up.
I still battle with depression, but besides that I feel good. If you need help improving your disability rating, hit me up bro. I'll put you on to the people who help me out. Sometimes a little bit of extra money can give you the breathing room you need for your life and your world.
Man I'm serious. So many people think temporary problems are permanent. I don't want to speculate it exactly, but I would argue that half of the people who have committed suicide were for problems that would have been gone or severely dissipated in a year or less
GREAT example of taking on issues with a clear mind.
MOST SHIT can be squashed if we approach it right!
Good to see you better too, @dinka64 .
Thank you. I have a young lawyer cat working on mine. I went from 70% to 90% in 3 months with that same shitty math they use. I was at 70% and they gave me 70% for mood disorder due to pain and a 10% increase on my back issues. that equaled 90% I am waiting on a ruling on both my knees and scars to get to 100%. they hope you die before giving you 100%First of all, Happy Anniversary
Secondly, I told you, tomorrow has the probability for possibilities.
I was feeling like shit. Broke as fuck living in a house I couldn't afford to fucking live in but not wanting to move because I don't want to fucking pack (I'm serious)
I went through Trajector Medical to get my disability rating from the VA increased from 10% ($140) to 70% ($1530) Then on my own I put in a supplemental claim for PTSD (they rated me 70% which pushed my 70% to 90% with their bullshit math) now I'm at 90% ($2000) with 4 more supplemental claims to go to get the full 100% ($3400)
With the $2000 I can pay my mortgage and pay down my debt and now I can breathe when I add in the money I make from my government job.
I went from feeling like I wanted to punch my own ticket (but not doing it because I was scared I'd miss and fuck up my life more) to actually feeling positive about the day when I wake up.
I still battle with depression, but besides that I feel good. If you need help improving your disability rating, hit me up bro. I'll put you on to the people who help me out. Sometimes a little bit of extra money can give you the breathing room you need for your life and your world.
Take it one day at a time dude. You have so much to live for even if you don't see it right now. We're with you buddy. Your not aloneIronic update. Been in the VA hospital since Friday awaiting a heart stress test due to chest pains. all test so far are good but the stress test will tell all. Keppra Meds had me wanting to Kill myself, now I am scrambling because I have so much left to do/fix. Grand kids oldest 18 youngest is 5 (I think its 12 of them)are all falling the fuck out worried. I sent a group text to all the kids the ex wife, and the Baby mama. (The wife and I split up for 4 years) I have only spoken to my ex, baby mama and three daughters. Out of my children the youngest daughter started texting me this morning so I called HER. The wife is down due to health issues. feels like an exodus. getting rid of the old fucked up so the new can have a chance at life without our tainted view. Any way Love me some BGOL. You Brothers Stay strong, Monitor your health. Stay up on your PSA (prostate info) A1C (diabetes info) somebody put a checklist of things we NEED to monitor to keep a jump on our health and post it. My 30 year wedding anniversary is today.
In a bruh love kinda wayTake it one day at a time dude. You have so much to live for even if you don't see it right now. We're with you buddy. Your not alone
Looks like you're heading in the right direction brother! Never hesitate to lay it all out on the board if you ever feel this way again. You know we all got you!
Blessings. Truly. I appreciate you. Prayers are with you. That’s no bullshit. Your confidence in your BGOL fam is inspiring. We all fucked up in more ways than a few. Yet, any of us who been here for 15-20+ years knows the board survives and thrives on Love. Stay up. Blessed to hear the update. And best believe I will keep pushing myself because it’s a lot of shit I too am putting everything I got into healing. 30 years is amazing, Bruh. Congratulations and know that I believe your best years are still ahead of you.Ironic update. Been in the VA hospital since Friday awaiting a heart stress test due to chest pains. all test so far are good but the stress test will tell all. Keppra Meds had me wanting to Kill myself, now I am scrambling because I have so much left to do/fix. Grand kids oldest 18 youngest is 5 (I think its 12 of them)are all falling the fuck out worried. I sent a group text to all the kids the ex wife, and the Baby mama. (The wife and I split up for 4 years) I have only spoken to my ex, baby mama and three daughters. Out of my children the youngest daughter started texting me this morning so I called HER. The wife is down due to health issues. feels like an exodus. getting rid of the old fucked up so the new can have a chance at life without our tainted view. Any way Love me some BGOL. You Brothers Stay strong, Monitor your health. Stay up on your PSA (prostate info) A1C (diabetes info) somebody put a checklist of things we NEED to monitor to keep a jump on our health and post it. My 30 year wedding anniversary is today.
Last photographed public appearance Dec 5th
Last photographed public appearance Dec 5th
Tomorrow!!! Please ALWAYS put suicide off until tomorrow!!! If you're a vet call that suicide vet prevention hotline I think it is 988 and then 1
Well said, everyone.
My dad's been in AA since the mid-90s and been able to maintain his sobriety.
He's noted having bouts of depression here and there over the years, but didn't fall back to drinking ... as it wouldn't help him any. H never met his grandpa on his dad's side, as he took his own life back in the late-30s or early-40s (left behind a wife & 11 children).
That said, he's attended AA on a weekly basis since 1996 up until early-2020 (pre-COVID). He hasn't gotten together with that group for the weekly meeting since COVID interrupted everything, but has always maintained contact with everyone. Developed some good friendships with people ... sponsoring and such in the years prior.
He's always been old-school and during the pandemic his big thing was "wellness checks" on friends and family. Especially some of the older people he knows that live alone. Just calling them up to see how things are going. Donating stuff to them (i.e. - old clothes, books, DVDs). Helped a few people with home repairs when he was younger and more able-bodied with those tasks. Keeping up with regular emailing with people. Shit like that. He's done the same with older relatives too. Talked to him a few times this week and he noted calling his aunt and uncle the other morning. They're 90 and 85yo respectively (one in the States, the other in a different province). He does the same with us kids ... calling and "checking in". It's appreciated.
Shout out to your pops for doing that. That's good stuff and I know the holidays for people that may feel lonely this time of year or any time of year.. I've been trying to do this as well, just checking in to say hey with a few of my family members that I really didn't have a relationship with before the pandemic. For 2023, I'm hitting the road to go see my family and friends. I told my son that we're going to travel more. Life is too short man. People dropping dead left and right and you dont have to be "older" for this to happen either. I mean seriously though, I wouldn't mind doing a BGOL meet and Greet for real.
A BGOL meet and greet would be interesting, lol. There would be plenty of networking. Fist fights, etc. Guaranteed that the meet & greet hashtag would be trending on Twitter & IG for several days.