Contemplating suicide

dinka64

Rising Star
BGOL Investor
thank you for saying it.

You can love their ungrateful ass from a distance.

fuck-them-kids-meme-idlememe-5.jpg
Real Talk The wife and I have been talking about just that. About to get 100% VA compensation we should be good with my other passive income. something just came over me today that could have been fatal.
 

Helico-pterFunk

Rising Star
BGOL Legend
Thanks for the update @dinka64

Great replies from everyone here in the thread.

You are a success, man and don’t let your kids bring you down. Like you said - you’ve done your job as a parent and now it’s your time. Do what makes you genuinely happy.

And always know you have thousands of people on your side just in this very forum, and we have all seen some shit in our lives and can offer suggestions and support.

Stay safe and healthy, man. Always.
 

darth frosty

Dark Lord of the Sith
BGOL Investor
thank you for saying it.

You can love their ungrateful ass from a distance.

fuck-them-kids-meme-idlememe-5.jpg
Yeap!

Life is a Theatre – Invite Your Audience Carefully



Not everyone is healthy enough to have a front row seat in your life.
There are some people in your life who need to be loved from a DISTANCE.
It is amazing what you can accomplish when you let go of - or minimize
your time with - those draining, negative, incompatible, 'not-going- anywhere'
relationships or friendships.

Observe the relationships around you.
Pay close attention...

Which ones lift, and which ones lean?
Which ones encourage, and which ones discourage?
Which ones are on a path of growth uphill, and which ones are going downhill?
When you leave certain people, do you feel better or feel worse?
Which ones always have drama, or don't really understand, know or
appreciate you & the gifts that lie within you?

Remember that the people you have around you will have an impact on your
life, your values, your health, your relationships, income and your future.
So, be careful when choosing the people you hang out with,
as well as the information with which you will feed your mind.
We should not share our dreams with negative people, nor
feed our minds with negative thoughts.

The more you seek quality, respect, growth, peace of mind, love and truth
around you... the easier it will become for you to decide who gets to sit
in the FRONT ROW, and who should be moved to the balcony of your life.

Ask for wisdom and discernment, and choose wisely the people who
will sit in the front row of your life.

You cannot change the people around you....but you CAN change the people
you choose to be around!

WHO IS IN YOUR FRONT ROW?
 

Bad Andy

No time for a 304
Registered
58 life done beat the shit out of me. Sacrificed my whole life for the fam 8 kids 5 boys 3 girls. All they talk about is when I die the house this and that. One son played NFL ball one played Hockey but they are building their family and cant help at all. One son said I will help fix up the house if I put him on the deed. I always had the most potential. MBA. Service connected disabled vet owned LLC. Agent for a trucking Brokerage. Own a notary service, 501c3 non profit. But I can't get shit to equate to finance. Really tired. Don't know what to do. Should be pulling this trigger but I am failing at that. Not looking for sympathy just an old tired man. I feel like I have failed as a father a son a brother and a husband.

Look outside of your financial situation. 8 kids you have lived and helped raise successful kids that alone is a great accomplishment. Sell shit and downsize, get some pussy like @Dr. Truth said, buy a sports car get a cheap condo. Step outside of your comfort zone. As men we have spend our whole lives making everyone around us happy. If them kids ain't figured it out by now, its time to ride out for yourself and enjoy your life. Check in over here with these knuckle heads and talk some shit. Stay away from anything or anyone trying to bring you down. Get closer to your grand kids don't leave shit to your kids. Sit your kids down and have a real good talk about generational wealth. Big homie you have a legacy, you have not failed. Please check in.
 

OmariAmaru

Rising Star
BGOL Investor
Can truly say I love this group, even tho I never personally met any of y'all. Better than the barbershop, cigar lounge, strip club. We laugh, we joke, we clown, we lust. But....when a brother is in need, we come together as a collective and wrap our virtual arms around him and say "It's gonna be alright and we're here for you." And that's a beautiful thing. "He ain't heavy, he's my brother."
 

JaRonin

Rising Star
Platinum Member
Yo, I know you feel down right now and trust me there have been a lot of people who have been there... but can you imagine the comeback story if you come up out of this and say fuckit and just start living for yourself?!

Change your surroundings and environment, and it might be the best move you've ever done. Take care fam
 

TENT

Rising Star
BGOL Investor
This is the best response. Coming from someone who feels like the OP, this is what I want to hear. Not some, "people have it worse than you".


Let me say this about suicide. Don't think about how sad your mom would be or anything like that. Don't think about your kids.

It's more selfish than that.

What if you miss? You think life is bad NOW?

Secondly, everything except AIDS and herpes ENDS...and even herpes ain't every day. Tomorrow has the probability of possibilities.

You could win the lottery.
You could meet the love of your life

Sometimes, a lot of times Life Effing Sucks, but remember Tomorrow has the probability of possibilities.

Have I thought about punching my own ticket? Yes. Why haven't I? A chance encounter I had with an RN on the bus in 2004.

I saw this fine woman on the bus, so I approached her on my, Charlie Last Name Wilson.

I asked her where she worked and same said, "The Suicide Ward"

Excuse me?

"I work on a Ward with people who attempted suicide and failed. One guy did a swan dive from a 10 story building and is now quadriplegic. 2 guys shot themselves in the mouth and are now quadriplegic. One guy shot himself in the ear and is now quadriplegic."

I said Wow. But what she said next floored me.

"With every one of these people they are worse off now, WHATEVER their problems were, they are worse off NOW than they were the day before they did this.

Tomorrow COULD get better. Yes, it could get worse, too. But Tomorrow has the PROBABILITY of POSSIBILITIES.

Think about this the next time you think of attempting suicide:

What if I miss? If you think life is bad NOW, imagine life being 1000 times worse.

Your life ain't that bad. Everything except AIDS and herpes ends...and even herpes ain't every day.

Tomorrow has the probability of possibilities. It could get better, and it probably will
 

TENT

Rising Star
BGOL Investor
Fuck that son who said he wanted his name on the deed.
Fuck all those fucking kids. Start living for you.
Look into selling the house and maybe downsizing.
If it is financial it can be fixed. Just think of the best plan and don't make hasty decisions.
 

godofwine

Supreme Porn Poster - Ret
BGOL Investor
This is the best response. Coming from someone who feels like the OP, this is what I want to hear. Not some, "people have it worse than you".

I can't imagine being trapped In a body where I couldn't kill myself if I wanted to, all because I wanted to kill myself.

Trust me, those dudes didn't predict missing. They didn't predict doctors being able to save them, but save them the doctors did and now they have 10, 20 or more years to be trapped in a body and they can't do shit to stop it.

What if I miss? Just take some time to think about that one for a second. What if I miss?
 

4 Dimensional

Rising Star
Platinum Member
Real Talk The wife and I have been talking about just that. About to get 100% VA compensation we should be good with my other passive income. something just came over me today that could have been fatal.

Good shit! You and wife should love your golden years peacefully. Be good to yourself and most importantly; forgive yourself. We go through funks. Let it be just that. A funk.
 

Bad Andy

No time for a 304
Registered
Fa real this Board have some of the most intelligent people on it and a plethora of information.
Wow God Is Good, I posted my response before I came to the end of this thread. Where do you live big homie? There's a lot of bro's on this board that really care and are willing to reach out. We have no idea whats up with the big brother @Shaka54 it's good that you reached out to the fam. Please keep on talking, even on this open forum of course some of us gonna fuck with you lol. Overall you might be able to help someone in a sunken place.
 

4 Dimensional

Rising Star
Platinum Member
Yeap!

Life is a Theatre – Invite Your Audience Carefully



Not everyone is healthy enough to have a front row seat in your life.
There are some people in your life who need to be loved from a DISTANCE.
It is amazing what you can accomplish when you let go of - or minimize
your time with - those draining, negative, incompatible, 'not-going- anywhere'
relationships or friendships.

Observe the relationships around you.
Pay close attention...

Which ones lift, and which ones lean?
Which ones encourage, and which ones discourage?
Which ones are on a path of growth uphill, and which ones are going downhill?
When you leave certain people, do you feel better or feel worse?
Which ones always have drama, or don't really understand, know or
appreciate you & the gifts that lie within you?

Remember that the people you have around you will have an impact on your
life, your values, your health, your relationships, income and your future.
So, be careful when choosing the people you hang out with,
as well as the information with which you will feed your mind.
We should not share our dreams with negative people, nor
feed our minds with negative thoughts.

The more you seek quality, respect, growth, peace of mind, love and truth
around you... the easier it will become for you to decide who gets to sit
in the FRONT ROW, and who should be moved to the balcony of your life.

Ask for wisdom and discernment, and choose wisely the people who
will sit in the front row of your life.

You cannot change the people around you....but you CAN change the people
you choose to be around!

WHO IS IN YOUR FRONT ROW?

real shit fam.

A lesson I am glad I learned at a younger age.
 

EGO-TRIP

Rising Star
BGOL Investor
You made all the decisions that got you here . Man the fuck up , own that shit , and make a plan to move forward. Cross out every fucking person with a hand out ,but only if it's justified . Make amends to those you have harmed and don't expect anything in return.......or just be a pushy!
 

TIMEISMONEY

Rising Star
BGOL Investor
Life is hard brother, but please hang in there. My mother died at 58 about 4 years ago, wish she was still here. Wasn't even married for 2 years, but my divorce has lasted a year so far with no end in sight!! Bitch is trying to take as much as she can!!! Life is hard out here man. Something has to make you happy. Whatever it is, seek it out and do it as often as possible.
 

carsun1000

Rising Star
BGOL Patreon Investor
for you youngins on the board still making kids, please look at this man's situation. is it worth it to have many kids? glad OP is feeling okay again.
 

godofwine

Supreme Porn Poster - Ret
BGOL Investor
Real Talk The wife and I have been talking about just that. About to get 100% VA compensation we should be good with my other passive income. something just came over me today that could have been fatal.
First of all, thank you for coming to us. Secondly, I'm a vet also, 45 and my body is breaking down like... I got Achilles tendonitis in both ankles. I'm at 90% but I got to file one more claim to get me to 100.

If you feel like this again, hit me up. I'll give you My number. Hit me up

90% is $2000, but 100% is like $3400, and next year it's going up to lile $3700.

Stay up, slick

What branch you serve? I was Navy
 

NightMare Paint

Not A Horse
BGOL Investor
Wow. Thank You ALL. I am reading after the fact. I wrote the message and was sitting in my car. minding My business just staring out the windshield. Someone called the police. a Black female officer was on my side with her hand on her weapon her partner a White boy had his gun drawn my gun was on my lap. The female tapped on my window and I let it down a little bit. she asked what's the problem. I said just tired of living this shitty existence. I thought I could chump out and get them to do it. I picked up my gun and the white boy dropped to his knees and so did the female and started praying. :eek2: the female got up opened my door grabbed my hand and pulled me out and hugged me then the white boy came over and said I love you man go home. :eek2:. I read every word yall posted and I cant argue that what I posted is fucked up but at the moment that's where I was. I have always been told I have a purpose, cheated death a few times. Just tired for real but I am off the ledge.
Relieved to see you still with us fam. I love when the board rallies around one of our brothers. We've got some true pillars here.
 

Gazoo

The Big Brain
Registered
Several have come into bgol to discuss. Great first step. One brother even wrote a book about his struggles.

We had a thread devoted to this subject. Check it out.

Stay in touch bro. Someone will be hurt if you commit suicide.

 

tajshan

Rising Star
BGOL Investor
58 life done beat the shit out of me. Sacrificed my whole life for the fam 8 kids 5 boys 3 girls. All they talk about is when I die the house this and that. One son played NFL ball one played Hockey but they are building their family and cant help at all. One son said I will help fix up the house if I put him on the deed. I always had the most potential. MBA. Service connected disabled vet owned LLC. Agent for a trucking Brokerage. Own a notary service, 501c3 non profit. But I can't get shit to equate to finance. Really tired. Don't know what to do. Should be pulling this trigger but I am failing at that. Not looking for sympathy just an old tired man. I feel like I have failed as a father a son a brother and a husband.
At least you have a family of your own....
 

kirkout

DCPG
BGOL Investor
It gets better, bruh. I know you think you’re old, but you’re not old. You got some life still in you. You’re going through a bout of depression. Like others said you need to go see a psychologist. Keep your head up. You may think it doesn’t get better but it does. It’s not over till the man upstairs say so. One thing I had to start doing is enjoying the simple things in life. Like going for a walk in the park and just enjoying the weather. Things like that. As long as you can see God’s blue sky and green earth you doing good.
 

dinka64

Rising Star
BGOL Investor
First of all, thank you for coming to us. Secondly, I'm a vet also, 45 and my body is breaking down like... I got Achilles tendonitis in both ankles. I'm at 90% but I got to file one more claim to get me to 100.

If you feel like this again, hit me up. I'll give you My number. Hit me up

90% is $2000, but 100% is like $3400, and next year it's going up to lile $3700.

Stay up, slick

What branch you serve? I was Navy
Navy 32nd st base san Diego uss england CG-22 OS1 then FCTCPAC as an instructor
 

dinka64

Rising Star
BGOL Investor
Wow God Is Good, I posted my response before I came to the end of this thread. Where do you live big homie? There's a lot of bro's on this board that really care and are willing to reach out. We have no idea whats up with the big brother @Shaka54 it's good that you reached out to the fam. Please keep on talking, even on this open forum of course some of us gonna fuck with you lol. Overall you might be able to help someone in a sunken place.
in funky town Dallas tx
 
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